I Can See Ur Smile In My Heart

2010-07-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

Yes... They invited me to Sentosa tml. I was excited abt it and say Yes! w/o a 2nd thought. But as i was doing my work, the image of wat happen in Genting runs thru my mind again. This time round, it wont be in Genting. It will be the same group of ppl in Sentosa. Shld i go? Or shld i juz learn my lesson and forgo this trip. I tried sms-ing Grace, telling her that not to leave me alone for tml. Well, of cuz for someone who don't really know what happen, i'm able to anticipate her reply. And true enuff, she was puzzled as in y would i say that since she has alr invited me to the outing later on. Well, i do not know where to start and how to go abt it and so, the 3 famous alphabets is being used again.. NVM i said to her. Well, she might sense something amiss or maybe she will think that i'm being over sensitive again. Anyway, i'm not emo-ing but was just afraid to get hurt again! It's no fun being left out when everyone is having a great time. And so, i made up my mind... Real fast huh. haha.. well, i shall go for it since i wont be doing much @ home either. And if, ''tt''n thing ever happen? i'll juz leave.. This is Singapore.. Not Genting anymore! yea.. so.... We shall see..

2010-07-01T18:29:00.002+08:00

Back from the Genting trip.. Lost quite a sum of money there, but it's worthwhile cuz i learn new stuffs. But this is the worst trip ever. i felt totally left out. I hardly can merge into the group. i miss bear, i miss my sec sch frens there. i hate to be alone and yet i was being sucked into it. How does it feels when ur walking back to the hotel room alone when everyone has a company. How does it feels to stay in the hotel room alone when ur frens come back in pairs telling u that '' he is afraid of letting me walk back alone. so he came back with me'' oh well, i just walked back myself alone! How does it feels when everyone is luffing away having fun and u r all alone in the other room playing ur own game. It's not as if i did not try to blend in, but it juz dun work out. And @ the end, it will be me, sitting in the room, playing my game or sitting @ the back of the coach reading my book n totally out of their circle. i'm tired trying. i'm juz not as fun n popular or intellectually enuff for them. I never want this kind of trip anymore... Never..

2010-01-11T16:40:00.002+08:00

It's not a sad day to begin with. But i have been thinking about the friends that i have. Friends that i cherish. Recently, alot of things happen with dramatic changes. Friends that are suppose to be close with no longer are. Friends that are suppose to be associate with no longer exist. The pain u feel when you saw ppl asking ur friends where is the other frens when in the past, ur name will always be mention. But it no longer does now. People don't see us as a grp together anymore. People don't associate us together anymore. How much pain will u experience? I've never expect myself to cry but it's really unbearable seeing ur close friends who don't appear like who u know anymore. So, is it me? or is it them.

2009-12-20T08:58:00.002+08:00

有个密秘。
放在心里。
说不出口。
永远埋着。
没人知道。
没人发现。
到此为至。

2009-12-14T04:21:00.004+08:00

The date today is 14/12/2009. 10 more agony days to meet my love. Amazingly, 4 days pass with a blink and i believe 10 more days is nothing to me! Spoken to him for the past few days, he's down with a cough, cough after every few words make my heart ache. I know i'm nto suppose to make him sound as thou he is very weak, but he looks weak to everyone afterall wat -_-

Bad news, he is being transfer to another bunk and he have to start all over again in making friends. He even mention that the carboard is opening by itself at night, so scary! Although he is in the army already, but he is still as naggy as ever. Keeps nagging at me to eat, to drink and even to use ear piece while driving, But i don't really talk while driving.... Well, all this nagging reminds me of what he said before he was enlisted. He said" When i'm enlisted, no one help u to pack bag, no one help to remind u to bring your house key/carkey/handphone, no one help to wake you up from sleep, no one help to scratch your back, no one help accompany you while you are driving alone @ night, no one no one no one......." It actually make me tear apon hearing all this, even till now, the 4th day the moment i think abt what he says i will still have this sour feeling in my stomach that slowly turns to flu in my nose and then tears starts to flow down. I really miss you =(

Surprise for him when he come back =) It may not be a big one, but i hope he will like it. I know he is sleeping now, so i'm heading to bed too so we can each meet in the dream! Love you bear =) *cant wait to touch tt 'botak' head (*(oo)*)

2009-12-11T21:58:00.003+08:00

Today is the day he left my side, left singapore to become a man. haha.. He was enlisted. I manage to rush to SAF ferry terminal after quarreling wif my ward manager who purposely wants me to be late for the appointment. Well, i guess she do not know the feeling of feeling in love.

Zooming thru AYE, ECP i pray hard to myself that i can reach on time so that i wont miss the last chance to see him, if not i have to wait till 2 weeks later which to all, it may not seem long. but to me, it sounds like eternity. Called him on the way, knows that he have just boarded the shuttle bus towards the terminal, i manage to be calmer n slow down my speed.

Waited @ the entrace of the ferry terminal, every parent is smiling while standing beside them is their son going off to protect singapore. Anxious faces everywhere, and of course lots of army personnel. I felt stupid standing there waiting for my man and his mum. After a few buses, i finally see him. He was with this Adiddas top which is from his 21st birthday and jeans but the most funny part is, he tuck them in! He looks hilarious but amazingly serious at the same time. Smile when he saw me, pass him the stuffs that he might need in camp, greeted his mum, aunty and walk towards the gantry.

His mum is very socialable. She can simply speaks to anyone and i mean strangers. The best thing is, she is not even a tiny wee bit of anxious that his only son is going into NS. Taking pictures everywhere, shouting out loud and making other people's baby cry. Hahaha.. what an interesting mum he has.

Got on to Penguin, the ferry that ferry us to Tekong, manage to sleep for awhile. While sleeping, i can feel that a pair of big hands is holding on to my hand tightly with fingers interlocked. I can feel the warmth and the love from him strongly and i'm really unwilling to let it go, moments later...

Arriving @ Tekong. Avery windy place with sea surrounding it. We were seperated from there. His mum, aunty and i were brought to a bus for a short tour around the camp, telling us what will the enlistee gets later and also show us their bunk, matteress, cupboard, game room and also their canteen. After this we went to the auditorium for a short talk with the Principle there. Clips shown, national anthem sang, oath said by the enlistee. I can see my love from my view as he is in the same row as me but we were seperated by people and stairways. There he is standing straight, replying with strength and looking real serious. Now, i really miss his smile.. Those innocent smiles.. So near, yet so far.

After the talk we were to meet us with him for a lunch break in their canteen, giving us chance to taste the food that he will be having in future. It's quite nice, but he did not finish his food. I think he don't really like it thou. But Bear, 2 weeks with those food and nothing else. So bear with it will ya? The lunch din last more den a hour and he was being called to fall in. The annoucer says: " pls bid your son farewell as they are falling in already." I did not cry, i gave him my best smile and kiss him goodbye. The kiss that is suppose to last for 2 weeks. And after 2 weeks, i make sure i'll give him more kisses den ever!

It's 8pm in the night. I actually fell asleep the moment i reach home. Removing the things he pass me this morning from the adidas paperbag. There it is, his sweater with abit of his smell on it. His handphone, psp and many more. Anyway, i quickly charge my fone so that i can talk to him later when he called. 8.15pm, he called! He is actually 1 and a 1/2 hour early from the time he is suppose to call. He sounded tired but i'm happy for him because he tells me that he has made 5 new friends. Isn't it great? But there's one sad news which is that he might be transfer to another bunk due to some new arrangement. According to him, he's the first in the list in the current bunk, a leader and also the one nearest to the door. HAAHAHHAHA poor bear, he gets the shit all the time.

Goodnight Mr Bear, tml will be a better day. Will hear from you same time again tml. Love you =)

2009-10-01T17:36:00.002+08:00

Hey u.. doesn't mean u are always joining our group which u can take it for granted that u r in the group. i compromise of the other 2 besties, not becuz of u. Yes, u can be sweet n nice but sometime there are things that i really cannot tolerate. So! if we are going out, doen't mean it's obligated for us to ask u along too! Pls get it right! ARGH!

2009-05-10T07:58:00.003+08:00

I JUST NEED A DAMN BLOODY PORTER TO VENT MY ANGER!!!! Getting angry over job is always happening morever i'm having shift work it's very hard to engage to after work fun n night life. So where do i vent my fustration? My Family? My Boyfriend? or my friends?! Of cuz not rite? they r human too n they haf anger!!!!

So the only way i can say it out is thru here but u know wat, wat media policy n stuffs. Staffs cannot post photo of the hospital, patient and ward or even talk abt the specific location. so fine, i did not post any photos, i did not mention any name of the hospital, i did not mention the ward i'm working in i NEVER even mention names!!! So wat wrong haf i got in blogging or writing how i feel in facebook? Where's all the human rights? I did not touch any of the rule of the media policy, i did not go against any so wat's wrong in blogging and saying out how i feel after bottling them up???

Limitation reaching.. I'm not sure how long can i hold on. It's only a matter of time i guess. Good luck -_-

2009-05-09T16:19:00.002+08:00

I know, It has been a long time since i last blog. But now i think there's really a need for me to do so bcuz i've been keeping all this inside me and i nid to vent it out!

This ward sister is really getting on my nerve, everyone is doing it wat cant u juz open ur eyes n see or wat? so angry. and the roster u r the one who wrote it den isn't it rightful for us to call u? Wat if we din call n u say tt we are being disrespectful towards u, din consult ur opinion But wat we can is scolding when we call u. FINE! i wont call u anymore! Watever. As u wish!!! Ur ward staffs will surely leave the ward one by one as u can see Many of them haf left. And the next one will be ME! ARGH!

2008-10-07T01:07:00.003+08:00

Death.. I've been encountering with death for the past few weeks. 3 patients death within 2 weeks. Remember the 1 st death during my first night where the call bell mysteriously rang by itself? And the next 2 deaths the following week with a seperation of 2 days each. Amuse? I'm the lucky girl of the ward for the time being. And having phobia now whenever there's ill patient. I'm afraid i will need to see death again so soon...

Forget and forgive. I realise i'm such person whereby i can forgive one easily. Is it good or is it bad?

I forgive people who once hurt me deeply, i forgive people who sprout nonsense of me. But this doesn't mean i can be taken advantage of. So, cherish me =)

2008-09-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

Raining heavily. Down pouring heavily even when i haven finish my work today. Mixed feeings i have today. Happen all of a sudden after so long. Why would i feel this way? This is not to be thou shall i carry.

Name list for the guest invited for my birthday celebration is up and ongoing. Never expect to have such a big number. Maybe because i'm co celebrating with my one of my collegue as well i guess. Family and friends, Especially secondary and poly sch frens.. Pls come automatically... haha.. u guys of cuz are in the invitation list =)

2008-09-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes.. i'm Blogging! anyway am working now. YES! it's sunday.. but so? nurses got no weekend =(

Was reading this ghost stories abt the hospital and i came across this story which talks abt a dying patient and stuffs.. Well, let me share my experience with u guys too. Here goes...

It was the first day of my night, and i receive the reports over fromt he previous staffs and they told me tt this particular patient on bed 6 is not staying for long as her blood sugar shows only 2.3mmol while the normal range is 4 to 8 mmol. Anyway alot of her family member is on her bed side and according to them, she's waiting for one more relative to arrive from another country. She's hanging on to her life dearly to see the last relative.

At around 9.30pm, the last relative came into the ward. Everyone has arrive and they all crowd around her bed, parying for her n talking to her. Around 10.30pm, the call bell of this bed 6 rang. Feeling abit weird because patient is not fit enough to press the call bell, and all the relatives is around her, so i tot it might be one of the relative asking for something. When i went in, i ask all of them anyone press the call bell, none of them haf touch the call bell @ all n it's dangling on the bed side rail. Obviously, no one touches it. Looking @ patient, she look sound asleep as her relative patted her to slp previously. But something was amiss so i try to feel for her pulse n try to get her blood pressure but i hear n get nothing.

Immediately call the doctor on call, came n certify her death @ 1042pm. Dun u found it amazing? Call bell ring by itself. is it a sign from the patient that she is leaving and need us to verify her death? Scarly isn't?

Hahaha. Did i scare u guys? Well back to work for me. passing over alr. Shall update soon =)

2008-09-15T00:45:00.004+08:00

update Update UPDATE!!! Woowow.. it has been quite sometime since i last update.. maybe it's due to the lacking of night shifts in my schedule. HeeHee (*__*) Alright, i nid to write something for the stalker out there to cont stalking on me u see. gua gua~

Anyway, alot of things happen around me. Things like Bubu getting sad, emotional and thinking of doing silly things. Pei Shan breaking up with Ernest. Sighhhh... That is why i dun believe in marriage. Human changes everytime, how can u be sure that the feelings for one another nv changes? It's either the love grow stronger day by day, years by years or it will juz cease as days, weeks and months goes by.

Oh ya, Btw Daday bought a new car. It's a Honda Freed and the worst thing is, i'm gonna drive the suzuki APV!!! Oh my.. a total diaster. I really haf the thinking that i rather take public transport den drive tt big "van". I really hope daddy can change his mind and get me a smaller car even thou it's juz a KIA Picanto.. PLssss Daddy.... *Plead* Oh ya.. Freed Looks like this

And Suzuki APV looks like this!!! oh man -_-

2008-08-27T23:58:00.004+08:00

Pictures tells a thousand words right? So the post today will be about my trip to Sentosa with Uma, Xiao Wei who happen to have the same off day together and also ShiJie (Bubu). So enjoy =) As usual, taking pictures in the toilet. One of the trademark not to be missed!

Some candid post =)

In Luge, on the skytrain going up towards the place for the so call go cart

Just me and Bubu.. The helmet is smelly -_- yucks!

What i always wanted but unable to have it =(

I simply love the editing of this. Credit goes to Bubu =)

Thats Bubu, me and Xiao Wei. Uma in the toilet i think

Slippers.. Nothing much.. Wu liao la~

My off day is spent like this with meaning. Very meaningful to spend it this way with my dear Bubu, Uma and Xiao Wei. It's a pity that Grace cant make it. If not she will enjoy it too. Thank you. I'm really glad to have friends like u guys around. Really grateful =)

2008-08-23T11:03:00.002+08:00

WTF! i lost in my mahjong session ytd!!! a whole of 60 bucks.. sigh. supposingly, to celebrate ying's birthday today. But i think due to some misunderstanding and miss communication, the whole thing was called off.

I am planning to bomb her place tonight to give her a surprise.. hope everything can be nicely lay out as plan =)

okok.. off to lunch break.. Blogging while working. hahah~

2008-08-14T13:54:00.002+08:00

Heeeheee. I Spent quite some time creating this picture. haha!

Home again because i'm suffering from diarrhoea becuz according to the doctor, it's the adverse reaction of the antibiotic i took for my toe nails. And the antibiotic is doing it's job now by clearing the toxic in my body. man.. Full time toilet cleaner i became.. wat an embarassing post...

alright.. will up date soon. time to cleant he toilet again =)

2008-08-07T17:57:00.004+08:00

Myspace Glitter Graphics

Nice or not?? Kumar says we need to take pics together but he have forgotten that we took pics together b4!!! and here's one of it.. heehee.. I like it alot bcuz of the facial espression.. very natural right?

Anyway, twinnie came n visit me in NUH wif mono. They are so nice to come all the way to acc me for abt 30mins only? or mayb less den tt. Xie la =) Peng You Wan Sui~

Sorry that i cant be with u guys (twinnie n kumar) now that i'm working. How i hope i can be there now n work together for the event! I'm so excited over it u know??? And guys, work hard now.. later meet me for breakfast after work ok? heehee~ I'm so blessed for having friends like u guys. I miss the company and i'm going to party like mad this weekend!

2008-08-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

HERE COMES THE TWIN!!!!
Pic taken in Genting

Hey Hey.. Thanks for all the concern you guys gave. I'm really fine.. No worries.. Just that i haf fever when i woke up today but i still have to go work bcuz it's v difficult to find replacement for night shift. And i'm feeling much better now. Thanks, Maison (mono) for asking.

Had dinner with belove twinnie, Kumar (GuRu) and Ah Siang (`Kyros) in Ichiban Sushi. We had alot of fun! Kumar make fun of the aunty standing outside and poor him, keep getting hit by me. And twinnie can eat till she drop her chop stick. HAHA! I love you guys!!!

Ok, i just did something very interesting. I had this Doctor who i know for quite some time from the previous ward i'm working in. I like to talk to him bcuz he's funny and fun. Just so nice that he's on call today so i websms him using the NUH's sms system. i asked him whether he wan any oolong cha n cake or not and he reply saying that he wants n he's very hungry. After awhile den i realise that the websms is a general websms which mean everyone who can assess to my ward sms can see it.. OMG!!!! hahaha~

I got over the ugly r/s previously faster den anyone thought.. Well, i dun think i would want an attention seek as a bf.. saw tt ger's blog, she make him sounds more like a xiao bai lian -_-

ok.. enuff of gossip. back to work.. Exhausted..

2008-08-06T04:06:00.002+08:00

me n my beloved twinnie =)
What a joke.. I realise that it's right for me to dump this Dawn Darren. U know wat, he is actually 2 timing me and still got the cheek to show me wat that ger wrote.. omg.. is he naive or wat?

Oh well, Jessica (Not msBehave), sorry that i misunderstand you becuz this jerk of urs says that it's you. but anyway, who cares la. I'm glad n lucky that i dump him earlier.. Hmm, nothing much to say.. no comments actually.. so heck care la~ Since i've gt a BF commentor alr.. He will be judging my future bf.. wif a chop PASSED from him den is allegible. =)

Alright.. i'm tired.. Dun worry, i'm fine.. Not going to be too upset over it =)

2008-08-04T17:03:00.005+08:00

I'm not happy. I'm having dilemna. i dunno wat i wan. I'm afraid of making the wrong decision n regret for the rest of my life. Wat shld i do? Toss a coin? counting the petals of a rose or simply ignore everything?

Both of them r good in their own way n bad in their own way too! One can work like mad n simply forgets abt u, the other can dun even work @ all! No sense of sentimental? One can meet u once per week wif only a few hours the other can juz slp his day away in ur hse. Quality time? I've had enuff of such things, i nid to make decision which i dun wan2. One look as if he has got quite bright future. One simply understands u well.

i nid to clear my mind!

2007-10-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

1ST BIRTHDAY WISH IS : SECRET

2ND BIRTHDAY WISH IS : SECRET AGAIN...

3RD BIRTHDAY WISH IS: OF CUZ IT'S ANOTHER SECRET^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY =))))) <3

n thx to ying, fan, shan, ernest, leo n hui. TY =)

2007-09-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

ok.. let me see.. Nv blog for sometime bcuz i din see any special things happen in my life.. but i do haf some bad luck following me...

Started my night shift one week ago. was a fun one n i sure do learn new things there but i think the sister juz dislike me. always picking on me. n does boot licking really helps? bcuz i think she's someone who's into boot licking n she sure like being boast around as the big big boss who haf alot of power.. argh.. do i haf to resort to tt kind of method?? argh..

oh well.. my fone haf been fooling around with me. It totally shut itself off n refuses to open up anymore.. it's gone =( but the old one doesn;t go, the new one would come !! haha. so i've set my target on this new fone.. from samsung..

Nice??

ANyway, my birthday is coming.. i wan this... n i think my secondary friends are going to buy it for me^^

Classsy???

anyway, if there's no gold psp in SG i dun mind the pink one^^ but not the black or white one.. too normal..

Quite cute rite?

this one nt bad too!!!

oh well... my sis n wz juz say tt having a psp is a waste of money when both my brother n wz owes one.. hmm.. they suggested to haf a camera instead.. i dun mind tt idea but wat kind of camera????

haha.. saw ben today. he become so skinny tt i hardly know it's him.. change so much.. but glad to see him again. ahhh nothing to say alr... tt's all~

2007-08-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

I miss Yuhua Concert Band.. sigh.. my secondary sch cca. It all started out when i anyhow chose a cca during tt time. i was caught in between concert band n girl guide. why girl guide? bcuz i tot i will be always doing cooking in the wild -_- sounds foolish but i think it's fun! n y concert band? bcuz i love music.. Anyway, in the end i chose music la..

Yuhua Concert Band is a band who changes me totally. from a v quiet, inferior and timid ger.. i've bcome more bold n speaks out more.. n definetly, i learn alot of trombone skills. n most importantly, i miss Miss Chan terribly.. her coaching style, her way of moving her baton, her white strands of hair n her spirit when she's on stage..

Yuhua Concert Band is oso a band who brings me out of SG to japan for exchange n tt;s my first time going oversea wif my friends only! n i had a great time with all of them.. the pain, sorrow n the glory moment...

I really wan2 go back to mucis. Go back to Miss Chan's coach. Go back to all those of my friend who we once sit as a whole n play together. It's really tt bad tt i can even dream of it.. Althought i cant fulfil it anymre in my reality. But the happy moment with Yuhua Concert Band will forever live in my heart..

2007-08-29T10:38:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!! I'm blogging secretly during my sap training same as Uma.. haha~
Althought i haf gt not much things to blog, but i like the thrill of not
getting caught.

Why ah.. Why is all the old nurses keep saying tt we new nurses are so LUCKY.. WHY??? -__-" <---- this face make Uma laughs.. (right beside me)
Btw Uma.. U r not a genius for typing wif ur screen off.. i can do it too =.="

ALright.. back to y the new nurses are luckier den the old missy.
Well, bcuz new staffs takes only 4 case to start wif a preceptor n an
AN to help u. Somemore new staffs dun haf to know how to read ECG, dun haf to rmb the normal range of all the bloods result, potassium level n stuffs.

Woohoo.. i got a fright from the vibration of Mama's fone (Uma). Damn her for putting her fone on the table. STUPID -----> (pointing to Uma) and now, she says she wan2 tag my tagbox till mad to9. Well, I shall see how mad she goes.. *wonder how mad can my blog cause her to be*

WTH!!! the whole ehub black out! my whole post is not even finished! Luckily, Blogger.com comes up with this brilliant idea on saving our post every minute.. *muackz*

uma: u dun like me???...

WenweN: No.. I Love u the most la~~

uma: YAI!!... make ur bf jealous!!... haha..

WenweN: he wont be jealous.. he would be MAD!!! bcuz i love someone like u -__-
Yucks yucks.. i feel so disgusting...

uma: idiot!!!!!.... i dun like u already!!....

WenweN: ok lo.. bye bye~

WenweN & Uma: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Nonsense la.. we are not listening to the speaker AT ALL!!! all pure shit.. i like this kind of fun.. Anyway Aini is JEALOUS.. *evil luff* muahahahahahah

Aini: I also wan2 join!! Shit la.. i'm goin to be all alone on fri!!..

WenweN & Uma: HAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ORBI~ *evil grin*

Oh ya.. Uma n Aini are my collegues in ward 78.. My die hard same batch buddy.. one die all die tt kind.. heehee..

OHhh.. i was mentioning tt the whole ehub was blacked out rite.. the best thing is, i CANT LOG INTO MY COMP!!! i was staring @ Uma as she blogs her post.. do her update n i cant do a thing! But nvm, i'm smart.. As smart as Uma.. tt's y i can finish my post.. bcuz i USE HER COMP!!!! heehee~

ANyway gtg.. the speaker is coming!! bye~~~

2007-08-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

okok.. I perm my hair >< disappointed =")" href="http://photobucket.com/" target="_blank">

Bye bye Straight hair =(

Why is there a kidney dish on my neck???

2007-08-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

WAhahaha HAHAHAHA... Nv will u imagine this.. The Ward sister actually praise me!!! This is out of expectation n full of surprise! Well, overall she says i'll pass my probation wif flying colour if i maintain my standard.. but hell knows these kind of standard is so F***ing hard! i 'm suffering under alot of stress! dun she understand????~ Sigh.. So, the morale is, Nursing SUCKS! But there's good point in nursing too. Like eg, one of my patient today bought 3 cakes for us! so nice of him.. n a previous patient bought one whole basket of chocolates, 3 boxes of Ferro Rocher.. well.. they can even buy alot of you tiao -_-... hmm, the workload sucks but the patient is great n so is the other staffs =)) *prays to god* please please.. let me survive for another 10 yr in nursing.. Thanks...

Here's few pics tt was taken few days ago when we go out ^^

2007-08-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

AAahhh.. Who would wan2 watch horro movie with me?? I'm looking for khakis for horror movie.. i dun wan2 watch it alone =( Bearbear dun like to watch horro movie n tt's y i'm left wif nobody else! =(

Work today was fine.. Bcuz the sister is not around n so is one of the staff which i hate alot. But i'll be dead tml, because i'll be the same shift as the sister n so is the staff.. WO DE TIAN AH!!! can i survive? or i'll cry again.. sigh. i guess i'll be crying again ba. bcuz the ward sister simply sucks n she will find all kinds of fault with the new staffs.

Pay day is coming soon. Weeee.. I got alot of things to buy! so, pay pls come soon... i <3 $$ haha~

I Love this pic =)

This one not bad too^^

2007-08-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow.. my last post was on the 22nd March of 2007!!! which is around 5 months! oh no.. looks like i haf to do something abt it.

Anyway, i have started working as a staff nurse in NUH. n it's a very tough job. a job where by u get lots of shit but there's fulfilment too when u see ur patients got well n get out of the hospital healthy again. But i really dislike my sister. Really.. she's pin pointing at juz the slightest thing u can find. not only me, simply everyone! all the new gers! She is always saying if we are not happy, we can always ask for a transfer. So wat if we are in an A class ward wif alot of rich ppl admitting in. Sigh.. it's so stressful la.. The stress is so hard to describe by words. This is a job whereby u are being paid peanuts n loads n loads of work.. sigh.. i can even dream of the sister, the work load n got shaken up in slp by fear.. sighhhh.

Well, there's someone who i got to meet recently n really likes him alot! he is always doting on me, giving me this n that n can tolerate my princess temper to! woo.. Loves him loads!

2007-03-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

Welcome a new member to my hse!!! and tt's HAM HAM!!!

Tis cute little white thingy is brought back by lio from somewhere out there.. And dun u think he is cute?

Anyway, prcp coming on this monday.. no mre fooling around.. because this is the last round tt i'm going to be in. After this, if i pass, it will be a whole new brand of life.. stress >< So, wish me luck ya...

2007-03-12T12:24:00.000+08:00

argh.. i gt the bloody sun burn from the bloody funfair.. the kids are like hooligans n there's nothing u could do to stop them from mischieve.. ARGH!!!!

Enuff of whining. Have been to st james 4 days straight! omg.. this is so bad for health.. And i'm not going down tt often anymore becuz exam is coming! i nid to study! i nid to pass! i nid to be a nurse!

so.. pls wish me good luck...

2007-03-05T10:11:00.000+08:00

woooo.. Having hot spuds bought from cafe n it tastes YUCKS! haha..

Attended Germain's 21st birthday. It was a blash and a so call chalet for us. But the bad thing is, i had a fall when helping her to decorate the place. I fell from a chair on top of a table. The highest height i have ever fallen. Although i din suffer from any fractures, but i had bruises all over me. Shu hui describe the whole falling episode to me because she's the only witness. It was say that the chair had over turn n my back simply hit against one of the leg. Sigh.. @ tt point of time, i guess i really nid him ><

Exams coming this wednesday n i'm not fully prepare. sigh yayaya.. jia you ah wenzi~

2007-02-26T11:00:00.000+08:00

Sick Sick Sick.. i'm feeling very sicklish.. Episodes of vomiting, headache n stomach cramp is happening. Sounds like food poisoning ah.. But it's not. i clearly know that all these is due to the heaty food i had during Chinese New Year.

Feeling so bad.. Mucus running out of my nose, phlegm in the throat every now and then, coughing to soother the throat and getting pissed at the slightest thing due to headache.. Sigh...

2007 is a year that i will be pronouce BANKRUPT! This is a year whereby almost all of my friends is turning 21. Hundreds of bucks goona be spend in present, tranvelling, food an the worst of all is, MY OWN 21ST BDAE!!!! sigh.. i see no future in saving big bucks =(

Having a presentation later on on eating disorder. I'm presenting on medication and traditional remedies. I'm afraid that i may not be able to project my voice.. and i sound different.. so.. eh, sexy.. hahaha~

My couture bag is sold off to a malay ger. it's brand new n hope she like it. Becuz tt bag dun suit me afterall. bought it on impulse.

Genting trip is boring. Been there numerous of time and have gt nothing much to do. in overall, it's a very boring trip. But i do hope going there wif my own friends. Guess it will be better and more fun ba =)

2007-02-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. i'll be leaving SG tml, which is Saturday in the morning 6am ^^ So, if there's anything,tag in my tag box!! love u guys! bye^^

Vday

2007-02-15T14:07:00.000+08:00

*EHEM* Vday yesterday.. Nothing much for me to blog abt becuz i din went on some special dates wif some cute guys.. haha.. but i think i did spend it meaningfully. Initially, i overslept n din turn up for class, and i go to sch juz for the meeting. After tt i met up wif my audition frens =)

Hmm, celebrated my audition mei's birthday in TPY wif some sakae sushi.. And go seperate ways after tt.. but we sure make plans to go PC bunk at around 7pm..

Went over to Sheraton Tower to find Val val, talk for awhile n leaves for Plaza Singapura. Met up wif Cykick n Night in Bunk n play till around 9pm n go for movie wif Daniel... eh, the movie was good.. but not the right partner! hahaha...

2007-02-11T13:44:00.000+08:00

WOOHOOO~~~ mahjong, Mahjong, MAHJONG!!! i've been a mahjong siao for the past 2 days... Always hitting the road to bukit batok to touch my beloved mahjong!! haha~ Luckily YanLing's Ah gong hse is available and it always is =)

Yesterday mahjong for kinda last min decide one. Initially, Alan, Andrew and me is going to find Valerie den go for some supper. And coincidencely, there's rounding in Orchard so we decide to go to the rounding after supper.. But after fetching Valerie, we had a change of mind n decide to visit my belove mahjong den^^

Reach around 2am, play till around 4am. Alan dun play so he sit n see. As for Andrew he left @ around 3.45am well, YanLing call her fren Sky to play.. haha.. So we start a new game n ended on 5am.. and poor Alan was slping in his car till 5.15am.. opps.. *guilty*

Anyway, i won some cash.. haha.. not bad =) hmm, i drove alan's car home bcuz he too slpy.. and tt's all for yesterday =)

*i hope he misses me too*

2007-02-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm, after such a long time for not abt to get to see my Dong, Nan, Xi and Bei. I finally got a chance yesterday after work! haha.. And i won^^ lady luck was wif me.. And sorry to Meng Fong la.. not i wan2 eat ur money de.. juz tt u always so "heng"...

Well, Meng Fong is a new fren i made.. and he live fcuking near me.. the best thing is, he drove an EVO 9!!! woohoo.. Comparing WRX and Evo (of cuz i sit both b4).. From the feeling of 2 cars, i prefer Evo.. Not sure y it's not WRX, but i think they are almost the same, juz tt i prefer an EVO more =) i shld earn n save mre.. den in future i can buy myself a car!!! hahahaha..

Sian, haf tog o work later on.. but i think gt MJ session again... and i hope this time round, i can win mre^^

*trying hard to forget him*

2007-02-05T12:12:00.000+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT!

To all Ladies and Gentleman... This is a gentle reminder that if any of u guys saw him (u shld know who) somewhere out there, anywhere in SG with a ger with him, pls bloodily DUN TELL ME!!!! Thanks for your cooperation =)

P/s: No offence to anyone.. Especially Ann.. Thanks for telling me anyway, but it don't concern me anymore =)

2007-02-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY

Hmm, working working working.. i've been working on weekends to keep myself busy.. People tells me that, when u are tryingt o forget a broken relationship, 1stly, Go out with your friends more 2ndly, Keep urself busy wif lots of things be it school or work. 3rdly, it's drink.. alcholic sure keep u away from sorrow. Have been drinking for the past few weeks.. Alcohol is sure a very good company.. and so does those who accompany me when i'm really down. But frankly, those who is with me is my family, Alan and so Kim.. i wonder where is the rest like Ying, Shan, Fan n leo they all.. it's kind of sad tt they dun seem to care.. dun seem to take note tt their dear liwen is having a very low n down period.

Went to party world after a very long break in between. It do bring back memories of me n him going to k box often.. and those songs that he sang often n the way he sings it. i really misses him very much. Always trying to cover myself up, trying to make myself look as happy as anyone. But deep down inside me, i'm still feeling very miserable. when then can i pass this miserable stage? i dun dare to think n i dunno wat to do.. i can only go step by step. how i hope we can be together again. like how it use to be in the past. but this time round i will cherish him mre.. but i know, it will nv happen =(

*i still misses him badly*

2007-02-02T15:21:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh.. i'm so guilty =( i actually accidentally step on TQP's shoe and spoilt it. omg.. and she have to bare foot all the way out of school n go to Bishan Junction 8.. i'm feeling damn bad lah.. TQP so sorry =(

Hmm, nothing much to blog @ the moment. Juzt down right now, i'm in sch's E-plaza. Alan coming to fetch me later on. Mayb going out @ night.. not too sure.. but i'll make sure i'm OUT! hahaha... so far so good.. Will update again ^^

*i misses him ><*

2007-02-01T04:38:00.000+08:00

i found this new perfume which suits me no matter from which angle u look @ it!

Vera Wang Princess perfume by Vera Wang was created for the playful, unpredictable, independent woman who treats every day like an event and adventure. This is a woman who likes to make her own magic, this sheer, flirty blend of water lily, lady apple, mandarin meringue, and golden apricot skin are melded with sheer floral notes, accented with dark chocolate, and finished with a pink frosting accord, amber, warm woods, musk, and vanilla - a whimsical treat. Notes include Water Lily, Lady Apple, Mandarin Meringue, Golden Apricot Skin, Ripe Pink Guava, Tahitian Flower, Wild Tuberose, Dark Chocolate, Pink Frosting Accord, Precious Amber, Forbidden Woods, Royal Musk Captive, Chiffon Vanilla

*hmm, Valentine coming rite???* hahaha...

Went to garage with Alan today after sch. He came to fetch me n from there we went to Sin Ming rd.. He change his suspension and also make alingment for his tyre.. After tt he even race with some cars on the road! woohoo.. shiok! Learn quite a number of things today. Example, intercooler, top mount and i saw a Silvia 15!! so chio^^ well, after tt he fetch me to PS to meet Kim.

Bought 2 tee shirt in Puremilk.. was shock bcuz i always feel tt nothing will suit me in PMK.. haha... but satisfy wif wat i bought^^ luckily tml gt no class.. bcuz the current time is 4.44am!!!! I dunno wat to blog @ the moment.. Blank in my brain. And i think wat i blog today start n ended abruptly~ well, Good night =)

*i misses him ><*

2007-01-23T15:58:00.000+08:00

I am SO jealous. Why does everyone around have to be so sweet when i juz haf a failed relationship? It really hurts me when i realise tt almost ALL of them are happily living together with one another presense! ARGH!!!

After all these while when i thought i have really put him down, put the past behind me and able to continue my own journey. Nv did i realise tt i'm actually lying to myself. On the way home today, i cried again. U can say i m not strong, i'm naive, i'm stupid or even i'm foolish.. But i cant help it. Listening to those songs he put in the mp4, seeing the pic which was taken during last valentine, i juz had this sour feeling from the bottom of my heart. and before i know, tears already form from the corner of my eyes and within seconds, i'm crying alr.

No point crying, i know. But when i heard those lyrics of the song it juz simply describe the 2 of us. tt's y i juz cry quietly along the way home.

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久

心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的

让时间说真话虽然我也害怕

在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了却没办法往回走

两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救

亲爱的为什么

也许你也不懂

两个相爱的人等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候

我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空

走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口

是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我

以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口

过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

2007-01-21T16:08:00.000+08:00

This is freaking Crazy!!!! haha... ok.. here goes~ Was working on saturday, which is yesterday, and i was being bully by 2 China man.. damn them! but nvm.. because Mike will be treating me, Kim n Joni to supper in Newton^^

After supper, Alan came to fetch me.. Went to a pub in Boat Quay and he ordered 2 mugs of submarine n i was force to drink it all down!!! haha... No doubt, i'm still standing after 2 mug of it! i wasn;t drunk~.. Was getting kinda bored so we ask Kim to come n look for us.. And after some talk cock sing song play mahjong, we decided to leave tt place and head for some hot tea..

On the way, Alan drove @ a very fast speed and did quite a few sharp turning.. Luckily i'm sitting @ the front and i gt secure by the safety belt.. but Kim wasn't tt lucky.. she was being swing to the next seat! hahaha.. so funny apon seeing her reaction!

Saw a S13( a kind of car) and tt stupid fellow actually did a drift in front of us.. So lame.. After tt we went to ECP for some nice breeze and also listening to Alan's sound system. He have gt 4 amplifers in him car! sounded like a mini club in his car.. haha... Then @ around 5am in the morning, we decide to leave the place n fetch Kim home. After she is gone, Alan ask me to drive his car home!!! OMG! it was the bloody first time tt i actually drove a maunal car bcuz i only have lic for Auto car.. and it's a Subaru!!! well, i drove all the way from ECP to jurong.. and of cuz he taught me when n how to change gear.. The engine die off a few times @ the red light near my hse.. haha... Was kinda malu bcuz there's a few bus behind me.. Well, anyway, i reach home safe n sound and will drive his car again! hahaha....

2007-01-19T14:52:00.000+08:00

Today is the 5th day of our break up.. Time flies.. Everyone around me keeps telling me to be strong, time will heal everything. Thanks to u all n especially my parents for being so supportive n caring for the past few days. I'm glad tt i've gt such encouraging parent wif hugs n console every now and then.

Ppl have been telling me that i dun look as if i have juz broken up wif someone who has always been wif me for 2 years. Well, i'm all well concealed! who would cry all day long wif their face shagged n eyes gogging out?? i wan2 maintain my beauty too! Becuz afterall i'm still in my 20 =)

I still do cry myself to sleep. Sleepless night thinking. But what else can i do? Memories everywhere i go. Songs that brings back those fond memories with him. Places that we have been together. Path that we once walk hand in hand. And even photos of us and our friends. It's all gone n turn into memories.

I'm getting use to this feeling. Trying to keep myself busy everyday. Enjoy the dinner alone and try to live myself to the best everyday. Becuz i know, he no longer is the one accompanying me down the future road.

Msg to Benz:
Benz, i agree with wat u say and wat u think. Although i'm agreeing but that doesn't mean i dun love u anymre. Afterall u are the 1st guy who i spend such long time together. Watching fireworks together, walking from jurong east all the way back to my house, changing me from someone introvert to someone who dares to speak up. makes me fall in love with dogs. went to StarCruise together. Receive my first bouqeut of white roses from you. Teach me how to play mahjong. The very first guy who cooks noodle for me. And lots lots mre. Benz, i wont forget you and our past. Becuz they are always so special to me for being the first love which is hard to forget =) Dun worry abt me, time will surely heal the wound. Do stay in contact because i believe although we cant be couple but we can still b gd frens^^

Msg to Roomates:
Ladies and gentleman. i know it's hard for u guys to accept the fact that our Lao Ben is no longer wif me, wif us. And @ the moment it will be a hard time for me and you guys. Bcuz u all are my second family. my second home. And we once spend so much time together as 4 couples. but now it's left wif 3 1/2 couple. it's no longer whole. And i guess going out with you guys will make me feel worst. I hope u all can understand and Shan.. i dun think i dare to go for ur chalet. i am afraid tt i might break down instead of wishing u happy birthday. This episode will forever leaves in my mind. First love gone in the age of 21.. Leo, bet u gonna cut awy the clip u made. sorry for wasting your time. Fan and Ying i really admire the 2 of u to spend 5years together. and i hope u all will go on strongly. Shan n Ernest, be strong together.. i would nv wan2 see anyone of u be seperated becuz the feeling is unbearable and i wont wan anyone of u to get hurt.

Well.. as for me... time will heal~ hahaha.. for the time being will juz let my wound left open n get use to the stinging wind out there till i get use to it.

2007-01-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night n today was my worst night ever. The very first time of tasting the seperation of someone so close n dearly to u for nearly 2 years. i still misses him n i hope i can change for a better person n this time round he will accept me back wif full arms and hold me tightly and nv let me go.

but all this sound so fairytale n imaginative. will it happen? will i really become a better person? i'm trying. but he's not.. bcuz i haf failed too many times.. tt's y he wanted to gif up alr.. This is the very last time i try. if it really doesn't work out, i will definitly let u go. u gt my words. and everyone reading my blog.

=( i misses u badly

2006-11-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hahaha.. miss me rite? It have been a busy week for me.. Working in Motorshow sure kill me.. Wearing those killer heels and standing there for almost up to 8hrs.. It was a freaking tough job.. And apon realisation, i realise tt they actually under pay us! Damn it... But nvm, it's an experience and i gt to walk in and out of the Motorshow w/o paying!! haha~ and lots of free gifts too.. I gt free Torque Magazine, Free Pen, Free ice cream, Free watch and even free Bridgestone badge^^ and i gt to know hell lots of frens!!! Show gers too.. heehee.. Guys mus be drooling rite now.. hahaa....

Well, anyway the motorshow has ended and now i'm free again! Starting up a business soon and i need promoters... This is an easy job but u can earn big bucks if u are hardworking enuff... So, if u are interested, pls give me a call @ 94564251.. Hope to hear from u soon!!!

2006-11-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Argh one last paper to go.. For the previous 2, i juz blurrly bring it thru n hardly wrote the correct answer.. haha.. Supp is reserving a table for me.. Sian ah.

Juz bought a new spec together wif dear dear.. It's a look-a-like couple spec la.. But his is bronze in colour while mine is Black in colour.. upload the picture if i m not to lazy..

Anyway, back to my exam, last paper to go.. coming this thursday but i have gt no mood to study now! Ah dear, lend me his laptop tt's y i can blog now.. haha... Thx to him.. but he is leaving me for 3 days to his fren's chalet... sad sad... Anyway, will try to update asap la.. try not to be so lazy.. :)

2006-10-20T14:46:00.001+08:00

1st thief: Oh! The police are here. Quick! Jump out of the window

2nd thief: But this is the 13th floor.

1st thief: Hurry! This is no time for superstitions.

Girl: Do you love me?

Boy: Yes Dear

Girl: Would you die for me?

Boy: No, mine is undying love

Man: How old is your father?

Boy: As old as me

Man: How can that be?

Boy: He became a father only when I was born

Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.

Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.

Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as yourbrother's. Did u copy his?

Simon: No, teacher, it's the same dog!

Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!

Son: That's why I say she's no good!

Manager: Sorry, but I can't give u a job. I don't need much help.

Job Applicant: That's all right. In fact, I'm just the right person inthis case. You see, I won't be of much help anyway!

Teacher: "How do u think Shakespeare wrote such masterpieces?"

College student: "With a pencil, madam, either a 2B or not 2B."

"Mum, teacher was asking me today if I have any brothers or sisters whowill be coming to school."

"That's nice of her to take such an interest, dear. What did she saywhen u told her u are the only child?"

"She just said, 'Thank goodness!'"

Teacher: "Where were u born?"

Student: "Singapore, Sir."

Teacher: "Which part?"

Student: "All of me, Sir."

Teacher: "Chong, u missed school last Friday."

Chong: "You're wrong, Sir."

Teacher: "Wrong, how is that?"

Chong: "I was absent, yes but I certainly didn't miss it!"

A teacher was asking her class: "What is the difference between'unlawful' and 'illegal'?" Only one hand shot up.

"Ok, answer, Joan," said the teacher.

"'Unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal' isa sick eagle."

Doctor: I have some bad news and some very bad news.

Patient: Well, might as well give me the bad news first.

Doctor: The lab called with your test results. They said you have 24hours to live.

Patient: 24 hours! That's terrible!! What could be worse? What's thevery bad news?

Doctor: I've been trying to reach you since yesterday.

Patient: I'm in a hospital! Why am I in here?

Doctor: You've had an accident involving a train.

Patient: What happened?

Doctor: Well, I've got some good news and some bad news. Which would youlike to hear first?Patient: Well... The bad news first...

Doctor: Your legs were injured so badly that we had to amputate both ofthem.

Patient: That's terrible! What's the good news?

Doctor: There's a guy in the next ward who made a very good offer onyour slippers.

Patient: How much to have this tooth pulled?

Dentist: $90.00.

Patient: $90.00 for just a few minutes work???

Dentist: I can extract it very slowly if you like.

Teacher: "How come you do not comb your hair?"

Ah Kow: "No comb, Sir."

Teacher: "Use your dad's then."

Ah Kow: "No hair, Sir."

A boy came home from school with his exam results.

"What did u get?" asked his father.

"My marks are under water," said the boy.

"What do you mean 'under water'?"

"They are all below 'C' level"

WEll, they are funny. Copy from a forum.. hope u guys enjoy n luff ur heart out!

2006-10-12T13:34:00.000+08:00

Today is me! my birthday!!!! Thankx everyone!! Thanks to Qiu Ping for that skin food.. Thanks to Nic for the taiwan pressiz.. Thanks to Ben'z and his fren for so call celebrating for me yesterday, Thanks to everyone and also those who remember my Birthday like Hui Xian, Xing and ppl from sgclub! So shock tt actually alot of ppl remember my birthday! Wow.. So touchy!!! Well, update again :)

2006-10-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

ok.. i skip school today.. not on purpose becuz i actually slp at 8pm previously! anyway, i think i hurt my spine.. its hurting...

Had my hair rebond.. i juz cant seems to get use to it! oh god.. i think i look weird... anyway, heard tt quite a number of ppl fail today n Lai Bew Meng is one of them who fail my classmates! Looks like she is getting lots of hate mails and bad feedbacks on our evaluation form! haha.. Well, guess i m a little luckier bcuz i pass under her! She did not scold me, she try to prom me.. And she actually SMILE m amzing huh? Well, good luck to Qiu Ping on this coming wednesday. Nic n i will be out there supporting u!

Going out wif Max zech tml.. And hope he rmb to being along my chequE! haha... dun tear them up ok?

2006-09-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

What is Trust?
I feel Trust is something that is important in the relationship. I wanted to gain the trust that i gave you but in the end, there is so much mistrust that have in our relationship.Why must everything happen together.

The mind is full of all the troubled and finally everything had to be say out. Why cant everything be said earlier and we can handle it as fast as possible. What really did i have in the end, am i loving someone that nv love me.I realli dunno what can i do now, what is right and wrong.

I am giving my best to my relationship, might be i still not done the best that you want.I wish you gave me the trust. I wanna say i love you only. No other galz, i never love other girl and the person in my mind always is only you.

I never break my moto."Loving someone is to see the person happy and not sad"I am waiting for light to show me the right way and led me to the wrong road.

Ok, I took that from Max's blog. It's Max's copyright :) But i think i have got something to say. Trust. Max, sometimes in a r/s u cant get back wat u have given. I think i also encounter this problem of trust before and i think i m still encountering it.

Anyway, I still love my bf because afterall the beautiful memories is much more then the bad memories. The beautiful memories spend together, the memorable moment. I guess all this will be the antidote to the survival of a r/s. And that is why, I m still deeply in love wif him :)

FYI: This is Max is my poly sch fren.. Not the another MAx :)

2006-09-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

The New 4 Beauties of the class

Class photos. Can you spot me? I'm the one is purple!

Hmm, i think my class are quite happening

Ya.. This is the Belated Teachers' Day gift for Jessica.

This are the so call friendly peoples in the class.

Haha. The purpose of this pic is to show tt we can actually fool around while Jessica is talking.. Opps. It's for effect purpose only. We are good students!

This are another bunch of friendly peoples.

2006-09-09T05:27:00.000+08:00

ARGHH.. so freaking upset.. imagine blogging at this time?? it's 5am in the morning!!! the earliest time of the day i have ever blogged!

Eventually waiting for someone's phonecall. gt everything prepare. Can set off once tt person call. But hell knows, he actually msg me!!!!!! my msg tone can nv wake me up unless i haf juz fallen aslp or i m about to wake up! ARGH!!!

I simply hate it when the plan is spoiled! Not saying tt i hate tt person who din call but i jus dun like it when things are plan out nicely, everything is done juz waiting for the last thing and in the end it's wreck!!! Argh.. so disappointed..

I'm not trying to make a big fuss out of this small matter. But.. i juz feel no justice. And pls, if i say call me nxt time, PLS CALL!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!

P/S for tt somone, dun feel bad.. i jus need to whine to someone but no one is available. all of them are sleeping soundly. so my final decision is to whine here!!! Cheers :)

2006-09-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

haha. imagine your lecturer actually cry in front of the whole class bcuz we dun appreciate her effort, no gifts for her during teacher's day, make her wait whole day w/o appearing for the appointed time during holiday and tell her tt it's sick seeing her the first thing u reach sch at the first day of sch.

well, i m not the one who did all this. i am jus a student of her in the class. Well, we dun really socialise with her much, but we still regard her as our mentor. I feel sorry for her. but the fact is that, i dun even know when is teacher's day! How abt trying to ask me when is my Gang's birthdays.. well, my answer is, I'm sorry, i dun know. I dun have the habit of actually remembering everyone birthday. i ahve a selective memory. I only remember my family members birthday n n my lover birthday.. haha... sorry guys, although i dun remember your's brithday, tt doesn't mean u all are not impt to me! all of u guys are. bcuz u all leaves foot prints in my life, the path i am going thru!

So, the same goes for my mentor. It's not tt we dun appreciate u bcuz we din send u any greetings or gifts on Teacher's Day. Anyway, u still leaves ur foot prints in our lives and we'll of cuz rmb u!

There's an interesting sentence i learn today. "Don't come out of the situation BITTER. Come out of the situation BETTER!" Meaningful enuff? Be it r/s, friendship or even problems u encounter. Learn from it! so, Cheers :) (^(oo)^)

2006-08-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. It was suppose to be a happy day ytd. Was actually having dinner in New York New York but who knows when we got home then realise Mr BenZ's(birthday Boy) wallet is gone. We suspect tt he have left it in new york new york. I intend to borrow dad's car to drive back to city link with Yufan, Leo and Shen Ying. But my damn parent was so selfish tt they juz simply ignore me. Frankly speaking, i dun think i will wan2 forgive them for such selfish act!

Mr BenZ was very angry yesterday. He din even wan2 talk to me. Hope he is feeling better today~

2006-08-17T13:37:00.000+08:00

Hehehehehe.. Check out for the wishlist!! Anyway, my birthday is coming.. so if u are actually racking your brain to think of something to give me, i suggest u view the wishlist and choose the one u prefer. And so, pls tag in the tagbox and inform me tt wat have u chose! For ur information, u dun haf to put down ur real name when u tag!!! Muahahahaha

2006-08-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

Mins ago, i was just bowling away in the bowling alley of grassroot club. Anyway, as usual, i am the top scorer of the day~ I m not good in studies, but i m always good in sports!

well, was so so so so so so lazy to actually blog and put my pictures up. U know why? Because the website to host my pictures suddenly become so lag n so useless tt i have to find another better host and eventually, i din find any -_-''

Sigh.. I'll try my best and go find one n upload my pic asap!!! Ok? I just took a not so bad bowling pictures.. So stay tune n be mesmerize by my newly bowling pose!

2006-07-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

Argh.. y gt this kind of ppl? Just bcuz u are sad n u suddenly need someone to go all the way down to find u in the middle of the night then is consider a true fren?
Or is it that when u r bored n u nid someone to acc u out den is a gd fren?
Or is it tt u r able to share ur sorrow wif tt fren, solve problem together den u r consider gd fren?

Sometimes, some ppl just dun know how to think. Juz merely use tt pea size brain to think tt they r always right n true frens are those who is willing to follow their command everytime. Come on, Pls b more mature.. i will nv b ur gd fren bcuz i will nv do things tt is against my right or my conscience. i always feel tt i treat u as a 100% fren, but u always think tt i m someone who uses u to past times.. Pls think clearly, pls know wat u r thinking.. u r no longer young. people have their own life too, they have gt their own stuffs, own studies.. So wat if u r so damn fucking free every night? i dun think u have the right to ask me out whenever u wan n morever gif me tt fucking attitude when i m not free or have an early lesson the next day..

Wake up la.. I m sick n tired of this kind of friendship.. i wont even feel pity if we r not going to contact again.. Rather, i will feel relieve n glad tt someone who is so ignorant, so proud, so youreslf to b able to get out of my life. Go live in ur own world.. One day, u will realise tt u will have no friends left around u, bcuz u have chase them awy URSELF!

If u have read my blog n u think u r not at fault? Well, think twice.. Think thrice and think once again.. Think carefully, r u really the one who is right? Or u are gonna say "ya la, ya la.. My fault again, u r always right" This shows how naive n childish r u, n u stil have the cheeks to say u r mature enuff to handle stuffs.. For goddness sake, sit down, look @ the wall or even at my blog then think carefully wat u really wan n who to be.. dun waste your life awy just like tt. Bczu to me, they way u r now is totally hopeless!

I cant say i m a very gd fren to all the frens i know. Bcuz to some ppl out there, they dun like the way i do things, they dun like the way i handle my friendship. But wat can i do? I may not born to please them, not born to please everyone. I m not b someone good in some ppl's eyes, but i m sure tt i still have a bunch of true pals n belove who stay with me always.

Well, dun bother to tag or blog bcuz i wont really care.. I once do care but since this is the treatment i get then fine. Suits u.. May u lives happily, but pray hard u will..

2006-07-24T12:24:00.000+08:00

Due to some technical problem, i am not able to put my pictures up. So sorry guys.. i'll upload them asap and by then, do enjoy browsing my blog once in awhile.. Dun forget, my words can still b publish!! Cheers~

2006-07-21T13:28:00.000+08:00

Alot of people around me is talking abt breaking up or have even broke up. Ah ben's friends ended their relationship one after another and yesterday his another friend just ended a r/s too. People always say bad things comes in 3. Well, tt's His 2nd friend who has bad news so which mean a 3rd one is coming up? Oh my, i was scare. i told Ben tt we must not be the 3rd pair that broke up bcuz after all the hardship we have gone through, it's not time to end everything yet. Another thing i was scare of bcuz My side of fren also have case of breaking up and recently i have heard of 2 cases alr. Oh damn... Looks like there's a high possiblity of a 3rd one coming..

Haha, anyway, Ben scolded me for being ignorant to believe in this kind of things. Well, i agree with him too in some ways but sometime things are just so unpredictable. Went to K Box yesterday, Sing till my throat hurts. 2 times in a week, tt's gonna hurt my melodious voice~

Going for movie tonight. Hope it will make my day bcuz i am feeling tired right in the morning before i even step into the campus. Sigh... Well, i may not b a Christian but i do want to say this to everyone i know. God Bless Everyone, the one who is sad, the one who is having stress and the one who is experiencing a dark moment now and to the one who is reading my blog~ CIAO!

2006-07-16T13:55:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. such a long long week.. FinalLy it's sunday and i am able to come to Ah Ben hse n put in all my photos n blog!

Well, I shall not talk too much and let my pictures do the talking. Tt's where A Pictures Means A Thouand Words come from~

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Nic's Birthday. Taken in the lift by Papa John

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Happy Family~

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Eating Nic's cake~

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Nic's present. including us.

Next will b taken on the day when we had our lab lesson teaching us how to mold on put on cast!

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Ambers' and my cast

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This is Amber n Nic's one~

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Our Cast.. Guess who's is who's!!!

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Before the Casting Session~

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Before the casting session 2~

And the day we went Eski Bar... It's BBBRRrrrrr coldddddd

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It's so cold.. There's even smoke when we talk!!

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Lesbian Pic!!!

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in the toilet of cuz

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The drinks we had. Strawberry Magarita and The Sleeping Polar Bear

Next is in a pub in Neils Rd We Gia Gia and Alan~ But too bad, Alan is not in the pic!

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Gia and ME!

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The Drinks we Had

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The Purple Lightning~

Next will be some random pick taken in schools

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I totally fall in love with this pic!

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Nice one wth Qiu Ping

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Tt's Nic's Cap.. I juz Merely borrow it!

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Taken in the tutorial room~

And Last but not least, Let me introduce the new member in my house! *applause* Let's all rise and welcome Kwok Xiao Bai!!!!!!

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a Dogs with a pair of eyes tt will make your heart melt.

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Muackz~

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Up~

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And Down~

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And the Famous Pencil Case! muahahah~

Ok, tt's all i haf took wif Ah ben hp~ So hold i can upload more again~ CYA!!!

2006-07-09T01:50:00.000+08:00

Firstly i m deeply sorry to Mr Benz. I m feeling guilty for not letting u to meet your fren but suffer in my fren hse slping @ the crough. I m really guilty n really sorry about it. I knew u wont enjoy. But i cant bear to let u go too. Sigh.. I really feel very remorseful right now. Pls.. forgive me

-_-'' :(

2006-07-07T12:56:00.000+08:00

AAahhhhh.. Juz check my result for the Attachment on yr 2. Well, damn the Ward sister for giving us such low marks! We are slogging our guts out everyday during attachment just because tt god damn bloody ward gt not enough AN(Assistant Nurse). And we student has become free labour who we din really meant our learnign objective in the ward bcuz we are being treated as AN or worst PCA lower rank then AN. F*** them. Instead of thanking us for helping them on those damn hour para, input/output chart, she just merely give comment on us that we are not active enough! WHAT??? did i hear it right???

Argh! Yesterday Sharlene pull me to Geylang to have a big feast on Durain. Wo de Tian ah, in the end i had a bad stomacj upset in the morning.. Pu and Pu and Pu! hehehe~ Well, was fun too and it was relaxing bcuz we bought the durain to ECP n sat there eating. Poor Alan, he was being scolded by Sharlene for not answering her question probably.. haha.. Well, Alan was our chaffeur yesterday, i m the follower and Sharlene was the Leader. She decides where to go and wat to do. Oh ya, recently Sharlene gt quite a few of tuition assignment for me. But it's either too far or it does not fit my time table. Tot i could earn a few bucks~

Recently, alot of people was telling me tt i look very loving Wif Ah ben. Let me count how many ppl haven tell me that. hmm.. around, 5? ya, shld be around there. They even ask me how to keep a r/s in this kind of state. whereby u do quarrel but afterawhile gets back together n loving again. Frankly speaking, i dun know how to answer this kind of question. But i do have a few words on how i think n act in this relationship.

During the past 1 yr plus, It's nv good life for the 2 of us. Dun talk abt the honey moon period. Honeymoon is only soemthing sweet whereby both parties will still b political to each other and no for garnted is being spotted. But as times n days past by which is approximately 3 months for wat i heard from normal couple. This is the beginging of the take each other for granted phrase. They will compare their partner wif other couple, they will compare their partner's attitude n the way they do things. Never will one self feel tt the love the other party gives is enough. They will always ask for more, more, and more. And tt may leads to numerous of quarrels, heart-breaking nights, Panda eyes n big soggy eyebag. I have been thru all this. whatever i mention above is what i haf been doing n is stressing them on my partner. He tolerate wif me @ first, but as times goes by, he starts to get tired of consoling, gets tired of the same episode happening again and again, gets tired of explaining, get's tired of assuring. @ this part of time, both parties will start to blame each other more major quarrels will follow up n tt will lead to break-up.

My r/s had numerous of break-up, or shld i say nearly broke up. But we manage to savage it @ the end of the day. We still quarrel, we still fights, i still throw tantrums @ time but it's better now. I know my limit n he know his. And i have learn quite a few lesson. I learn not to probe on things tt may hurt him or hurt myself. I learn not to dig on things tt may reveal danger. I learn to let go n forget. U can oso say tt i pretended nothing happen. Ignorance.. I am currently happy wif this r/s n had no problem wif it. So, mayb if u really wan2 know why we look so loving? u can try the way i maintain this r/s??!! haha..

2006-07-06T12:39:00.000+08:00

Eh.. no one missing my post. no one tag in my tag box.. No one notice my extinct!!! What is this ma!!!

Anyway, I'm back! Recently no post bcuz Comp spoil, no mood to blog, too tired after attachment to blog..

So many things happen tt i din blog down. Firstly, know this guy frm the ward i m attach to. He is a 40 yr old plus man wif a family of 3. Anyway, it started like this. His wife was admitted for giving birth and so she is admitted to my ward. Coincidentally, the Wife husband is the ward sister's brother! Well, i dun attend to them bcuz i m not asign to tt cubicle. So on the last day b4 she is discharge, i walk past tt cubicle. I saw her husband and he smile at me. For being polite, n i m in my uniform, i had to smile back. And tt ended the whole episode in the ward.

Next day, i saw him in the Kopitiam @ the hospital lobby. He stop me n talk to me. He ask for my number in the end. I was reluntant to give it to him. But his continuing of persuading, i gave up. I thought he was being friendly to get my number n to know me as friends? morever he is married n just had a newborn.

Never do i know tt he is actually interested in me n had been volunteering to send me back from work, or send me to work. He always make plans like going for dinner in this posh resturant @ the seaside or have this relaxing breakfast in a cosy n comfortable environment. But i haven nv entertain him or go for his date.

A few days ago, all of a sudden, he wants me to have his credit card. He wants me to spend his money. He wans me to use his money so tt he can buy me wat i wan! Oh my god. Wonder what will his wife thinks if she found out abt this. Anyway, i juz merely ignore him~

And now, he is again pestering me to talk to him on fone bcuz he misses my voice n misses my smile.. Wo de Tian ah.. Save me someone!!!!

Well, A start of a new semester. A few new faces but everything seems fine to me. Year 3 i m in now. Gt to know more friends then i was in year 1. But more projects coming up n more tense n stress moment i am going to go thru. Sigh.. Tired...

I'll try to blog again asap.. So PLS MISS ME!! Especially Mr Ben~

2006-06-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

I bought a Black shoe for attachment today in Far East. Took a long time looking for the PERFECT one n finally found it! quite cheap, $20 bucks only.. i bought it w/o hesitation..

Bought xiao Bai to ben's hse.. Uncle wan2 see it.. LOL.. Xiao Bai was like sniffing around in the new place.. Uncle was delighted when he saw Xiao Bai. Heard tt he loves Dogs alot.. Haha.,. had alot of fun there.. but ben haf to leave for work so we left early..

Now @ home blogging.. Tired n Bored.. tml haf to go IMH again... haha.. MAHJONG!!! LOL~

2006-05-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! my comp spoil!!! feels like losing the connection wif all my frens n my social circle. Especially my blog!! sorry for the lag of updates, i haf got no choice.. My comp juz gt siao n keep restarting itself again and again n again..

Sigh.. i miss all my pictures, music and even new updates of daily news from my friends all around SG!! sigh.. Plss... make my comp survive once more!!! CPR done but to avail.. cham la.. I still dun wan2 commence it dead yet!

Attachment for nice. Nothing bad happen.. All the patients know my name n we get alone well. i always remind myself tt they are having problems tt's y they r hospitalise n we mus understand the pain n problem they are going thru instead of complaining tt they haf lots of request!

Anyway, a staff nurse there comment tt i haf got good complexion n comment on my make up skill is great n she even wan me to teach her some tips.. haha... Looks like i m living on my skin recently~ haha!!

anw, it's late, bro have to slp le.. so hope i can blog again ASAP! miss u guys!!

2006-05-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

Juz finish practising on my Piano.. Today learn 2 new pieces, it's Fur Elise and Moonlight Sonata. Both are by Beethoven.. haha.. Shag.. took me a full great 2 hours to actually play all out with broekn notes.. haha.. But, i'll nid to practise it everyday in order to perfect them! Once, i perfect them, i'll play it for Dear to listen and make him Envy me!

Dear was angry wif me today. He thought i dun trust him. But it was some misunderstanding tt makes me sound as if i dun trust him and he is angry abt it.. Sigh, i dun know how to explain den he will believe, juz hope he can put it down n forget abt it. And, it's really a misunderstanding.. Trust me baby~

Wore make up to work(attachment) today. Everyone was so shock to see me and they were like praising me. Everyone say i look pretty n natural wif the eyeliner i drew. Not like Dionna.. haha, pls dun compare me with her.. we r different! She's the so call BIMBO in sch.. oh gosh and i am not!!!

Sigh.. I miss Ah dear.. i miss him..

Hmm, gt a list of stuffs to buy. Fake eyelashes, Perfume, Working school, Pumps for going out. OMG.. i haf to save money n buy them le la..

Hmm, not really in a good mood today.. Din took any pic.. Hope tml will b a better day ba~

2006-05-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

Aiyoyoyo.. Was so tired today during attachment.. Nothing much happen but the ward for quite busy.. @ least it keep me bz thru out the shift.. but i actually haf free time 1 hour b4 going home..

Haf a short nap during my break.. Damn tt Jun Wen to use my fone n capture my soundly aslp look.. He is going to get it from me soon!

*paiseh*

Hmm, talk abt friendship.. Some ppl juz take their friends for granted.. For example a friend of mine today juz took me for granted.. She send a msg saying "Pls find a programe tonight." Come on, how do u feel when someone send u tt kind of msg? It look n sound as if it's ur duty, it's ur job to actually help her find a programme..

Well, i anyway i reply back saying tt i m working morning shift tml and i m not able to go out late and pls dun make it sound as if it;s my resposible to take care fo ur boredom or wat. Ha, and u know wat she reply? she reply saying tt i make use of her, she wants my company oso cannot, ask me to shut up, fuck off n dun ask her again..

I msg victor n let him know. Victor is so angry wif her.. Telling me to ignore her, delete awy all her msg becuz she is not worth a friend.. Friends are understanding, concern and caring. She told me tt she is vex on a sunday, but i m having morning shift, i tried my best to help her, but it seems like she is making use of me! Sigh.. Friends ah.. When will she understand n stop being so childish?

Anyway, on the way back juz now.. Mummy notice this car tt haf the same first 4 number of my hp number.. i gt tt pic!! heehee..

9456!! hhaaa..

2006-05-12T02:06:00.001+08:00

Todays attachment was in SHS (school of health services). I saw the health zone which i haf been wanting to go for sometime back. Guess i m gonna organize a trip there wif my gang~ took a few picture there.. There's a big size heart you know..

We haf a 15 mins break after the talk, n there we were sitting there eating..

i was having a box of mee goreng.. Anyway, i cant finish it so i gave half to Iryshad..

After tt, we went back to watch the video n left for lunch at around 12.30pm. We went to burger king n eat..

Amber!!!! WE MISS U!!!!

heehee.. not forgetting to act cute when eating!

Saw this v v v v v old poster in Pearl center in chinatown.. haha... So China~

Ok.. it's hard to admit tt they r my pals.. but, they really do.. they brighten up my day!!

Ok.. nothing special abt the fries...

After tt, we went back to SHS and finish our attachment there.. After we haf sign out, we decide to take some memorable photos.. hahaha

Woo, isn't tt us on the wall? so professional..

Ok.. here's another one..

Hey!! we found treasures in the sea!

This guy is having love sick tt he dun even wan2 let tt fish off!

Hey.. i wasn't ready!

His head too big.. tt's y i look unhappy~

Finally, the master piece by the one who knows how to handle a camera the best..(And tt's me!) btw, i only took it once n it turn out so nice.. not like other defect pic which taken by them.. anw, i din put those up.. not nice~ haha *proud*

Anyway, nothing much happen le la.. was raining when we finish everything n rdy to get home.. Luckily Victoria was kind enuff to come n fetch me back.. thx!

And tt Benji gong gong slept for the whole day.. Din hear from him @ all since the last msg @ 12 noon.. damn u baby!

2006-05-03T18:50:00.001+08:00

Got a few complaints from frenz tt my post is getting shorter and shorter.. Went to browse thru my past posts.. I realise i haf lost the touch.. the touch of my own blogging style.. Wat happen? i dunno abt it myself too haha..

Anyway, No work today.. was a free day for me.. Gonna enjoy as much as possible before the attachment really starts.. Starting from 8th of may, i will lose my freedom and i m going to b tired everyday..

Ytd wedding was a success although there's some lousy staffing.. i was force to haf a staff who is slow and know nothing abt english.. Havoc!!!! i haf to explain to her everything in chinese.. Thank Goddness i haf score an clear A1 for my chinese.. If not, i will die for sure.. Wanting to change another staff, but what i get from Rajan was that i m the only capable one to handle one table like nobody else.. DAMN!!! Ytd was an expensive dinner.. Suckling pig for the opening dish, follow by Buddha Jump Over The Wall, King prawns noodle and the best one is Hasma in double boiled papaya.. Tt Hasma was the best dish for girls who loves to have good complexion.. hmm, i haf a mouthful of those thx to yanling who saves some for me~

The father was quite generous to give all of us a AngBao of $28 each.. woohoo.. and 2 pieces of Da Chai(something to do wif 4D or gambling).. Work until about 1am and finsh le.. Gt home.. too tired to do anything, tt's y i juz fall aslp n nv blog.. Sorry guys~

This morning, woke up @ around 11am.. receive 7 miss calls.. 6 frm my Darling Cheryl and 1 frm joanne.. and of cuz one frm my tai jian benji.. haha.. My husband is a Tai Jian.. Believe it or not.. He haf become one since yesterday! Muahahha.. Benji Gong Gong say he is tired and gonna haf a GOOD rest.. so he can only serve me tml.. Damn Tai Jian.. heeheex..

Haf lunch and High tea @ Swensen juz now wif a long lost friend.. haha~ wow, he change alot and he drives a Beetle Convertible.. woohoo.. Took some pics, post it up below.. Anyway, Thx for treating me the swensen lunch huh..

Btw, Benji Gong Gong.. we went out together wif his gf.. so no quarrel huh.. heex..

Tt's all for now.. i'll see whether are there anymore interesting things for me to blog later @ night..

Next up, is showing you guys my locker in my work place @ Sheraton Tower

A bag left over from the previous tenant of the locker. Meant to put our pins and clips inside..

Post ad.. One of the communication transportation for me n my darling cheryl to communicate.

A small compartment for us to put our shoe

Tt's my darling @ work..

Another pic~

Hmm, tt's all for today.. long enuff my frens??

2006-04-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

Post by popular demand.. Haha.. ok, was joking.. Post my house warming pic up bcuz i promise Anonnymous tt i will do it~

Thx for them to attend my House Warming..

Haha.. nice sun effect..

Ok.. Tt's my room.. I haf paint my room all purple.. bcuz tt's the most beautiful colour n it has a soothing effect!! agree??

Well, tt's all for those house warming pics.. i actually forget to take more pics wif my secondary school friends, relative and the neighbour around.. sorry everyone~

2006-04-26T02:16:00.000+08:00

Oh well.. tt explains why i m attracted to Mr Benz.. u know why, i juz realise tt he is born in the August 24 which is the First day of Virgo and Last day of Leo.. So he shld be consider half a Leo n half a Virgo..

Wenwen here is always attracted to Leo guys.. Mayb because of their Ego, their popularity, their leadership and the way they handle things..

How Wenwen see Leo's guys.. Wenwen like the way they control ppl with their authority.. Full of power n the ability to make ppl listen to them.. The charm tt gives off unknowingly.. Knowing tt handful of gers has fallen for them bcuz of their mei li.. haha..

Recently wenwen is under tao hua.. A Leo guy fall for wenwen.. haha.. But wenwen gt Mr Benz.. she cant do anything bad behind him..

Back to the horoscope thingy, Mr Benz is Half a virgo plus Half a Leo.. Heehee.. No wonder he is so egoist and is always giving off a secret charm which he himself dunno abt it.. haha~~~

2006-04-25T15:02:00.000+08:00

This is suppose to b a Sunday post.. But i was too lazy to blog so now then i post it up.. sorry for it people~

Sunday was bored because Ah Benz was bz working and i haf got no plan to go anywhere with anyone.. Saw Leo online, ask him why he din go for fishing and he reveal to me tt Ernest is leaving singapore today.

Taken in the Airport

Tt's Shan.. Her man is leaving on tt day..

Ernest on the left, Jeff on the right.. Ernest is the one flying off~

Heehee.. they dun know i m there when they r posing for the photo~

The beautiful structure in Changi Airport Terminal 1

Taken b4 going to take the skytrain~

Saw the stalk? Jeff accidentally broke tt orchide...

This pic taken by me of Jeff is nice~

The Famous Fountain of Changi Airport

As a Spec Fanatic, I borrowed Ernest's Spec and wore for quite some time b4 he fly off~

Writing The Address Tag for his Luggage

Caught Red-Handed for taking the tag for personal use..

My new Specs.. It's Purple in colour de...

After sending Ernest off, we went to Marina Square to have dinner.. We went to this resturant..

Fin Cafe..

I have a Fish & Chip and so Does Pei Shan

Jeff having Shellfish Pasta

Ying having Squid ink Pasta

Hmm, went to meet my ah ben after ward.. And then went for K-box n go home after tt~ Nothing much alr.. haha!!

2006-04-18T16:46:00.001+08:00

Hahaha.. came across lot's of funny website today.. Came across this gay blog.. I was shock when i read it.. The couple were not bad looking but they are guys!! Den in tt gay's blog it link me to a website whereby they will scan ur face by your pictures of n u can see u resemble which celebrity.. Fun!!! here are some of the examples..

Well, Ayumi look-alike.. Haha.. U have to post different kind of picuters of yourself with different kind of views then only u can find out which celebrity appear most of the time.. The celebrity who appear most of the time will be the celebrity u matches with.. cool??

Of cuz there are mayb a few celebrity that appears once or twice.. They are..

Ain't they cool? haha~ anyway, u can check this web site Here

2006-04-18T14:07:00.000+08:00

house warming ended on the previous sunday. It was a Good day tt day and Alot of ppl came to my new hse.. Thx for the Ducky toilet from Nic and Amber. And Thx for the nice table lamp from Fan n Ying, Vase wif beautiful flower from Shan n Ernest and the beautiful Frame n Picture frm Hui n Leo.. Thx guys.. My hse warming is a great success due to u guys.. Thanks!!! Btw pics will b up after nic send it to me!!

2006-04-15T14:52:00.000+08:00

Today Ah benZ will b on the way back to Singapore.. He will only reach SG on Sunday morning.. Hao Gao xin oh!!! finally he is coming back n i can see him alr.. Sniff Sniff.. Car is in good condition except for the neon light.. Hmm, If the sky stop raining, i'll wash the car.. but if it continues, i think i'll juz ignore it.. haha~

Dear dear.. did u bring any present back?

2006-04-14T19:12:00.000+08:00

HuHuHu... Dear Dear left for Tioman le.. i Sad sad.. Dear dear, faster come back la.. Ren jia xiang ni ma!!!!

Haha.. but Dear dear haf liang xin.. he left his car for me to drive.. haha.. But i dun dare to anyhow drive la.. anything happen i think i will die.. heehee..

2006-04-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

HAha.. i haf been lazy again.. After the last paper, Amber, Nic, Robin n I went to ECP to vent out all the stress.. Here are some pics which we take during the whole process..

The Sun, Sea and Breeze

In the bus to ECP

A break after cycle for a long time

Haha.. we take turn slping while drinking

Shag after a long ride towards the end..

After tt we went to beach..

The glaring sun

The Strong Breeze

This 2 rascals love the Sun, Sea n Breeze

Self taken pic due to someone's photo skill is bad..---->(amber)

Me facing the Sea!!

Standing alone nxt to the sea

She wants to b bigger den the sea.. but....

Amber: Is tt a Bird? Wen: No, It's an Aeroplane!

Sand for Sales!

Hmm buy mine!! It's cheaper den hers!!

Last but not least, The FAMOUS Sandy Legs on the Sand!!!

Haha.. after tt Robin drop Amber n me @ Paya Lebar Mrt station.. Well, we din went home immediately, We went to the Hawker center n haf some dinner!!!

I m having Sugarcane drink while Ambu having Coconut drink

Ambu's Fish Ball Noodle

My Yong Tau Foo

Our side dish.. Rojak!!!

She cant wait to haf tt mouth of noodle

See!! the power of 2 hungry gers..

HeeHee.. Satisfying face!!

2006-04-06T00:01:00.001+08:00

wow wow wow.. Amber loves us!!! she edited some photos and they are NICE!!!!

Nice... Memories... Happy Thots.. Loving Them.. Close bond...

Loving u.. Haf u melted apon seeing our smile?

Tt's Nic's Cleo mag as the camera base..

Ohhh.. Comfy bed.. Gonna haf a slumber party soon!

Hmm, decided on going to ECP this coming friday.. Will hit straight to the beach once our paper finishes.. heehee.. The agenda for tt day will be: Picnic from the Cheers follow up by rollar blading or cycling.. After tt take a bath @ the toilet there n go straight to the ECP hawker center for some sumptous seafood dinner!!! woohoo! lai oh lai oh.. friday faster come oh! and tt day will b photos taking day.. tons n tons of photos will b uploaded soon!

2006-04-03T17:17:00.000+08:00

Dun mind my language.. I am fucking angry, fucking du lan, fucking pek chek rite now!!!!!!!!!

@%#@&^*$@#(&)(*@#(&!)^%)#(&)@#^%^&$!!!!!!!

Dun ask me why i feel this way.. Every ger will sure haf this encouter b4.. feeling fuck up all of a sudden n nothing seems to be going the rite way or the way u wan.. The ppl around alr kana from me.. although i feel sorry for it but i m still v pissed!!!!!

1 Year Anniversary

2006-04-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

Come across this topic when i click into the net.. "Blog topic of the day: What were you doing 10 years ago today?"

Well, i cant rmb wat i m doing 10 yrs ago on this night.. But i can sure rmb 1 yr ago, what exactly happen to me...

1 yr ago and few days ago, i met the man of my life.. I was living in depress tt time bcuz all the ppl around me is few with love and care from their partner. But i nv really gt a bf who can really last together.. Always crying @ nite, asking the wall why am i the only one tt is left out for enjoying the love everyone is owning and having..

Finally, i receive the answer tt i haf waiting for some time.. I met this special person in a pool center.. Sound rather funny, but it's special.. Know him for quite some days n finally he ask me tt magic question on April fool day.. Initiatly, i tot he was joking n trying to fool me with an April fool joke.. Well, i'm smart enuff to ask him to ask me again nxt day if he is really serious..

Sure enuff, he ask me again the nxt day.. HAHA.. With some hesitation, i din tell him the answer immediately bcuz i m afraid tt i might get hurt again. but if i dun try den i will nv knw whether is he the guy for me..

I intend to try one last time b4 giving up totally.. Therefor, We r together on the date 02/04/2005..

After one yr, i take a look on the very first pic we took together.. it was fill with memories.. I still rmb, on tt day after we went to jurong east for pool and we play until very late n so intend to walk back to my hse.. We play along the way, and tt photo was taken @ a bus stop in front of Chinese Garden Mrt Station..

Memories.. Full of memories.. Nv will i know tt we can last for 1 yr.. Nv know tt i can haf such long r/s too.. Gladly i haf him by my side.. All by my side.. no one else except him.. My love.. Thank you Mr Benjamin Tan Hua Jie. Thx for the care n love u gif.. Thx..

Ah Benz, 1 yr to u it may means nothing. But to me, it's a learning process. I learn to become more mature and understanding. Even Amber n nic say so. i think it's all thx to u for actually bcoming the teacher of my life, teaching me alot of things..

Well, i know u r not perfect. u haf a very bad n lousy temper.. u will lose ur temper easily. u like to say tt i m oso like tt.. but always rmb.. i juz wan u to hong me tt's y i purposely throw some temper around.. I haf changed, Bcuz of the love we had.. And thx to u.. Ah Benz, Happy 1 Year Aniversary.. May the love we have can last as long as it may n everyday a day of happiness..

2006-03-31T16:01:00.001+08:00

Okok.. i admit i was too lazy to blog for almost a week.. But it was also due to my exam ma..

Today was Hs2079 physc module exam.. It was a piece of cake.. what i haf learn came out.. haha..

Still mus study for the rest of the module coming up.. So tired..

Why so many ppl haf been asking me to go for a movie on saturday? I juz turn down the 5th person.. Argh.. why mus they ask me to go for a movie when the exam is round the corner?? damn it!

Went to watch Ice Age ytd.. It was very cute n funny.. haha.. Before movie, we went for dinner in Cafe Cartel in Cine.. I had Fish n Prawn combo.. While Ah ben had his St Louis Pork Rib again..

St Louis Pork Rib

Fish n Prawm Combo

Me n ah ben's 1 yr anniversary coming.. juz few more days.. But i am not ready for it.. I dun think i even haf the time to celebrate ba.. Hmm, Ah ben.. Possible to postpone the celebration to the nxt sunday where i haf gt no more exam n we can actually the celebration more freely n stress free..

Ah ben today was in a new environment working with his friend.. He sound tired, so i wont msg him alr.. i dun think he wan2 reply me either.. too tired le..

Guess my entry haf to end abruptly here.. Ciao~

2006-03-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

Darn.. Leo was hopitalise.. Get to know abt it this morning.. Was quite shock n sad when i hear it.. And the best thing is, he is admitted to CGH!!! so far from jurong.. bet his family haf to travel v far too.. haha..

Went to see him.. Erm, a big scar on his face and a fracture wrist he have.. Kinda poor thing, but at least he still can joke around.. He was kinda glad when he saw us.. bet he must b really v v bored over there.. Anyway, after a while we went home.. Dear was having a headache so i drive home.. Fetch Shu hui hme too.. it's on the way..

I drove home from Changi to Jurong leh.. Proud of myself.. The best thing is they are all fast a slp in the car.. this prove tt they really trust my driving skill.. Thx guys..

Tml moving to my new hse.. not much feeling abt leaving the old hse.. and not much enthusiasium for moving to the new hse.. Hmm, i'll go watch soccer now.. Liverpool VS Everton.. alright.. cya~ And hope Leo get well soon...

2006-03-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

*cough**cough*.. Choke by my own phlegm this morning.. I could'nt wake up @ all.. The throat is feeling sore, dry n itchy.. I can even sense the heat covering my body.. suspect having a fever.. And truely, i gt a fever of 38.5.. I could not even pull myself to brush my teeth.. And i doubt i can make it to sch.. Try asking nic or amber to help me sign my name.. Nic do help me.. but i think they r not v happy @ me for skipping lesson.. *cough*

Juz packing my room.. found this cute doll that has a story behind it.. Rmb i was in Primary sch tt time.. Daddy like to go to this Games house in Bugis.. He likes to catch tt doll n gif it to me n my siblings.. haha.. a very very nice memory indeed.. Here's a picture i drew..

*cough*.. my coughing is getting worst.. i m even afraid to slp.. Afraid tt the next day when i woke up, i may get choke by my own phlegm again.. -_-

I will go n see doc real soon myself.. Hope he will vonlunteer to accompany me along..

Tml gt class in the morning 8am.. Wonder can i make it.. i misses him.. badly.. *cough*

2006-03-22T02:34:00.001+08:00

Highly Recommend this dessert serve in BakerzIn.. The chocolate is warm and when u open it up, hot chocolate flow out like endless river.. the rich luxurious chocolate sause definetly will make ur taste buds itch.. hahaa... Well, that was being ordered by Nic and Robin..

Eventually, Benz and i ordered this! Becuz i haf gt craving for brownie that day so i haf ordered a brownie ice cream wif berries..

Dun it Looks appealing??

Ok.. Woke up feeling sore in the throat.. Wasn't feeling good.. So i guess it's due to the virus nic pass to me n me indulging in the Twisties i bought for movie the previous night.. haha.. Anyway, I made a bottle of honey water for nic, hope she get well soon...

Gt my 2nd attempt for clinical skills today.. Well, i pass it.. It's expected to have tt result.. heex.. As for Nic, she pass too! Not much worry for her bcuz we haf confident in her.. Anyway, I gt back I/M again.. a great help indeed, n i manage to do finish my skill in less den 10 mins.. haha~

Went back home after tt to get change to get rdy to go out wif Benz.. Daddy was kinda piss with me for not helping them to deco the hse.. oppsx.. Anyway, i promise him tt i will help out tml..

Was playing pool with Benz juz now.. took a few pictures of his handsome pose..

Tt's my man..

Me in the Pool center

Shuai!!!

Anyway, Benz let me drive his car.. And i fetch my sis home.. Proud of myself.. haha~ tt's all for today.. Cya~

2006-03-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

Hehehehe.. Happy days in sch.. Took alot of pics wif Amber n Nic.. Well, Can see frm the pic, we r really very happy together! Well, it mus b a long time since u guys see our pics.. Here goes.. It will b a v Pictury blog entry!

Amber is going crazy..

See!!! We r really V Happy..

Happy Together!!

Yesh?? Wunch?? Who call me??

Speak no evil, Hear no evil and See no evil.. But it looks as if she is Smell no evil..

Trying to take a pic when Amber is nt around.. But her bag represent her anyway~

The very First pic i Took wif her..

Amber is coming!!! Quick.. Press the button!!!

Second version of See no evil, Hear no evil and Speak no evil..

Sniff... They dun wan me to be in the picture.. But i manage to squeeze in!!

OMG.. What r we thinking??

Trying to Practice my Clinical Skill

She is Serious too.. Dun she??

Erm.. Nurse in future...

3 Promising Nurses for the Future!

GO!GO!GO!!!

Well, come to the end of our photos.. Well, dun be sad.. More will b up!!! Juz hold on to your mouse n wait for our return!!! Cheers~~~

2006-03-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

I got to sch early today.. Very early.. i din miss any lesson.. Well, the Research Method presentation goes well.. As for the debate, erm.. no comments ba.. kinda funny.. LOL..

During lab, we r suppose to fool around with our blood finding out our blood type.. Although i have my bld type in my IC, but it ok.. I still wan2 prick my own hand n squeeze out my own bld onto the plalete.. Diff Antigen solution is drop onto our 4 parts of bld.. My blod type is B and the Rhesus is positive +.. so, i am B+..

The lecturer is looking for volunteer to be her model to show to the whole class.. So, knowing tt nic haf gt a boundary to cross for not fainting apon pricking her own finger.. We force her to volunteer and before she gt all the blood on the plate, she is alr hearing ringing in her ear.. she haf to lie down on the dirty floor while Amber make her way to buy something sweet for her.. Anyway, after lying for a while, she gt better..

In E-plaza, we show Nai You.. hahah~ Du Shen leh.. N tt Nerd hair style.. but he is still cute!

Went to my new hse.. erm.. up to my standard.. not bad.. had great fun fooling around wif benz n my sister in the hse.. haha~

Oh ya.. My Ipod is working again... Mayb Benz's CPR is better then mine~

Ok, i'm tired.. guess i'll end it here~ TATA!

2006-03-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

I wan2 say something.. But Amber's mummy say i cannot say.. But, I cannot tahan.. She really v stupid la..

Nic studying for her clinical practical tml.. Amber n i r starting to haf our screw loose.. zhao gao.. haha~

Ok, i m enjoying myself at the moment.. so no bad memories till now..

Sigh.. i still feel like saying something again.. But, Amber's mummy say i cannot say tt again.. Arghhh... AMBER V STUPID!!

2006-03-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

HUHUHUHUHUHUHU... My Ipod Mini spoil le!!!

One fine day, it suddenly black out and fall into unconsiousness.. I try to Revive it by commencing CPR.. After giving a few rescue breathing, I gave up.. My Ipod Mini is certify dead at tt moment.. Devastated, I tried to bury it under pile of rubbish n dust on Ah Benz's desk.. BUT... whenever i go to Ah Benz's hse, I'll see it USB cable around.. It brings back memories where my baby Ipod accompany me thru the journey back n fore to sch.. Lakeside to Yio Chu Kang.. Sigh..

Now, I haf to count on my trusty hp.. hope no misfortune will befall him.. May God bless it! haha~

2006-03-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

Oh ya.. Dedicated to my Baobei Bebe de.. haha~ Hey u.. erm, Thnx for tolerating my moody attitude today.. I was kind of pek chek juz the tiny biny of things.. I was like trying to find fault with you although i dun mean it..

I m glad u din blow ur top @ me.. and instead, u keep ur cool.. But sometimes u r too egoistic.. haha~ For example, today i said i wan2 go home myself but u insists sending me home.. u dun haf much time left to reach camp n the person in charge today is the most despicable beast! I was so angry @ u for not listening to me.. I dun wan u to speed.. Speeding kills n it may take awy ur license too! Think twice bebe.. I know u are doing me good to send me home.. i know u care abt my safety.. but, sometimes listen my advice as well..

Anyway, I miss the bunch of small cute cute banana ur mum bought! The way she describe it to me today is so CUTE!! haha.. and the way u eat tt banana is disgusting man.. but i LOVE it! haha~ OH ya... I miss ur Lub Chiong.. tt chinese sausage tt u r good in making de? can i haf it for dinner tml?? ok? can can can? make one for me la.. hao bu hao?

2006-03-12T01:04:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Guess i m wrong abt PMSing.. haha.. I juz haf a bad day afterall!!

First, it's the wrong shedule of my job.. Second, indecisive of whether to go to cosybay or not.. Third, forget to bring my key n gt lock out of hse cuz daddy n mummy not @ home.. Fourth, leg kana bitten by BIG ANTS under Shu Hui's block.. Really big ANTS.. hahah~ Lastly, i hurt my finger n it bleeds badly..

Now, safe n sound.. I'm bad home.. and hope, nothing more will happen again.. i had my shared of "My Unlucky Day"

Tml, Leo jio me to go for K box n after tt movie.. dun know Ah Benz wan2 go not.. scare he tired after work.. *pray* hope he wan2 go...

2006-03-11T17:44:00.000+08:00

PMS is scary... Actually celebrating Shan's birthday today.. I had made up my mind tt i will once again try my best to forget the past n go out with them.. It's not tt i dun wan.. But it's the feeling i had in the past tt is still bothering me since now..

Ben is working night shift today.. he cant accompany me to the celebration.. I m suppose to meet them up for dinner in Kallang.. I ask Ernest abt the price of the food there.. and he told me tt he can be $30 dollar n below.. SO EXPENSIVE.. and tt place is so far..

In the past i dun mind going out with them bcuz there's still a lionel who gt no gf n he can at least joke around with me, say some sacastic words to me.. Whenever i m out with them in the past, i always had this lonely feeling.. i always had this feeling to quickly find a bf so tt i wont be left out again..

Now.. things has change.. ppl around changes too.. Lionel gt a gf and so do i gt a bf.. All the couples went out together b4.. But u can imagine the loneliness u get when u r the single there n ALL of them r COUPLE! I dun wan tt kind of feeling again. morever this time round, Lionel is with his ger.. I doubt they will understand this kind of feeling bcuz i doubt they haf gone thru this b4.. I dun wan2 feel tt way again..

They always like to say Pei shan oso gt come out single together with us.. but did they realise something? I m always trying my best to occupy Shan's thought.. becuz i know the feeling of looking at others cuddling into each other arms n u r alone.. tt feeling is unbearable..

I hope some days.. they will understand this kind of feeling.. n instead of saying why i m crying over such a matter, i hope they can actually spare a thought n console me..

2006-03-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

As expected.. my menses came.. haha~ Thx to tt Janz.. wan2 bully me.. but tt makes my day! thx.. well, kinda bored again..

Having headache.. And i rmb, i din haf dinner @ all juz now! poor thing!!!

2006-03-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! i am being dump by my own by my own boyfriend.. Dump by my own friends for their sleep!!! I am rotting right now @ home..

Guess it's PMS coming.. I am feeling v bad.. Feeling v sad for ppl not able to fulfil wat they promise.. V sad for not being able to see my boyfriend.. I msg him, oso no reply.. Guess i wont msg him le..

PMSing is v bad.. i dun wan2 feel tt way.. but i m feeling it right now!!! ARGH!!! i wan2 go n DIE!! Suan le.. I'll juz sink into my deep deep misery... Good bye world..

2006-03-10T01:51:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Today went to sch early to study Research Method together wif nic n amber.. Thnx to Amber.. She taught me alot of things last min n they did alot of help in my Exam.. Love her!!!

Went for the OLAY training.. we haf samples of the latest OLAY facial foam and daily moistures.. It was a very Good job.. Nic was suppose to go PS.. And i m suppose to go to Ngee Ann city.. haha~ well, we start work @ 12pm n end @ 8pm.. And the job is pretty good.. $8/hr!!! good pay good job man!!! morever everything they provide!!

Went to Bakerzin wif Benz, Nic and Robin.. I haf the Coupe Black Forest together wif Ah Benz.. And Robin n Nic has the Hot Chocolate cake wif Ice cream!! woo.. so delicious!!

Special Thx to Amber n Nic.. Thx for the revision.. And thx to Robin n Ah Benz for the wonderful time everyday!!! haha~

Btw, Meeting Amber n Nic tml night for a gers night out @ alley bar.. haha~ Actually dear will b giving me car to drive.. But i no confident.. so i'll only drive on my way back!! i may even send Amber home!! haha~

2006-03-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!! Hell knows.. I juz gt to know tt there is someone out there tt haf wait for me den more then a year!

Juz gt back in contact with this guy.. he contact me in msn.. eventually, i dunknow who is he.. but now, i think i get the idea..

Am i really being very bad? I tends to forget abt my guy frens since i haf ben ben.. oppsx! I am being faithful!

Ok.. guess i'll juz let it be then.. dun bother! hahaha~

Changed~

2006-03-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

Chatting wif ann now... haha she gt BF le!! Sweet huh~

Argh.. I wan2 go ECP wif dear dear.. Walking beside the sea, whispering into each other ears wif sweet stuffs.. Sit on the bench n watch the stars .. Counting them one by one.. Dear.. can we go??

Having slumber party this coming Saturday in Leo's hse.. But i m only going over @ around midnight after i finish working! Hope i can enjoy it..

Going to watch Big Momma House on Sunday wif Ah benz..

Recently during holiday, spend most of my time with Benz.. hope he dun treat me as a nuisance..

Our r/s has grow with time.. Grow to become more stable.. Grow to become mature.. Grow to understand one another better.. Grow to have more communication.. Grow to see each other in one another shoe..

People will change.. They tend to change from either good to bad, bad to worst or even good to even better! But why ppl changes? Ppl change due to the environment, due to the people revolving around them, due to the problem they face and oso due to the way they see things..

Ppl say i have change... Ann tell me tt i have changed.. Amber n Nic told me the same thing.. Benz told me tt too.. But everyone has different meaning when they tell me tt i have change.. Ann say tt i have turn more attitude.. More bao zhao.. Amber n Nic say tt i have change to become more calm minded.. wont be tt bad temper like the past.. Benz told me tt i have change in my attitude.. i wont show my temper n attitude easily.. n will tends to think b4 i gt angry.. Everyone gives me different feed back on how i have change.. Frankly speaking, i really dun know how i have change.. but somehow or rather, i feel tt after coming across so many things, i haf become more mature..

For example lionel.. he did something which is not very good to friends.. but i try to think of all sorts of way.. i din confront him.. i din make a big fuss out of it.. i even thought of juz let it be n forget abt it.. it willt akes lots of courage for someone who is once so bad temper to do such things.. i m not an angel.. i m not a saint.. dun u guys think tt it's good tt i haf achieve such a attitude i haf for nw?

Some ppl dun like the way i do my stuffs, the way i settle my frenship, r/s.. But, have u ever think, Does everyone settle their stuffs ur way? everyone have they own thinking, haf their own way of doing stuffs which they think it mayb right.. so rather den hating them, disliking them.. Why not try to accept the way they are? U can dun be good friends with them.. But not talking bad abt them is something tt u can actually respect.. Even if they dun respect u, but by respecting them, u r actually respecting yourself..

Agree? if u dun den i cant say anything.. bcuz tt's my way of thinking~ Erm.. my sentence may sound as if i m challenging u or showing u my attitude.. but it's really the way i think.. no offence..

2006-02-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. let me see.. went to haf my celebration of belated V-day wif dear dear ytd.. The first place we went is to esplanade to haf the fondue tt i haf always wanted... well, it's not up to expectation and it din gif me a very good first immpression.. it's my first time having fondue anyway.. aww... bad experience..

Well, we exchange our pressie in the car.. i was shock of cuz to see the ring.. and was more shock when i gt to know the price.. eventually, i tot he would buy a couple ring from the shopping cart in PS.. bcuz to me, it's more den enuff to buy it from there.. But.. he actually went to SK Jewellry and buy me the ring.. morever it's under the wedding ring category.. hahaha.. so sweet of him.. he gt himself one too.. weeee~ And as for the pressie i gt for him.. It's a almost out of stock European Champions league liverpool jersey.. hahah.. it gt me a lot of trouble to find it.. but i hope it's worth it and dear likes it..

After tt went to catch a movie.. we watch Pink Panther.. it was rather a cool comedy.. i luff non stop n i am oso glad tt ah dear is enjoying himself too.. hahaha... After pinky panther.. we went to haf dinner in Changing Appetite.. Why tt place? bcuz i went there once wif my gang and the feedback from the food is fabulous.. so i tell dear tt one day i will bring him to tt place and eat.. and he can still rmb my words till den.. so touch.. well, one of the feedback from leo was, " try the peach tea.. it will make ur balls drop.." hahaha~ nonsense...

Well, after tt, we went to K box.. But dear gt tired easily.. guess he dun sleep for long the previous night.. so we left K box @ around 1am.. and well, i drove home.. bcuz he is too tired n i guess he is not in the state to drive.. and so i drove back to my hse and get something n after drive him back to his hse n i did parking!! i park his car leh!! haha.. so proud of myself...

2006-02-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

Finally i met up wif him.. I misses him alot... hugs were not enuff.. kissess were not enuff either.. anyway, i juz haf to tolerate for abt few hours more, i will be holding on to him again.. clinging on to him like a koala bear.. i tell myself, i m not going to let him loose tml when we meet.. haha~ he is being secretive these few days.. well, the truth will be unfold tml! everything will come to light.. no more peek-a-boo!!!

Argh.. cut myself today b4 going into the toilet.. quite a deep cut.. luckily Amber have plaster with her.. if nt, i'll bleed to death.. KE LIAN!!! Well, as i haf mention on my previous post, Nic has brought along her camera, Pictures will be taken n they will be post up no matter they r cheeky ones, naughty ones, pretty ones, stupid ones or even the nerd ones!! we r the pretties with numerous of style, action, pose n pattern!! Respect man~

Amber addicted to the *pout*

The heels n slipper we wore to sch today~

Our trademark.. the so call Antenna

Wind was strong...

I Miss him...

Tortise drawn by annoymous

Amber says she Love this pic...

I m slacking!! tired...

Well, the wall was a gd thing to hug...

Look @ Amber's nerd face!!! -_-

I M So Happy In sch today...

2006-02-17T16:28:00.000+08:00

I was so freaking stupid today.. i brought 2 pairs of heels to school.. hahaha.. juz to pei he nic's style in sch.. eventually i tot she will wear her boots... but, in the end she wore another heels of her... anyway, my heels was the spolight ofthe day.. ppl notice my heels b4 they notice me.. hahah~ everyones reaction was kinda funny..

Nic bring her camera to school today.. well, photo day!!! Amber was our maid today.. heex.. she is suppose to buy us our breakfast, lunch and dinner.. she is oso suppose to take our bag and carry our books... hhaaahhhaaa.. Oppsx.. she is threating me to write somthine nice abt her.. she emphasis on her "you BETTER" write something nice abt me.. Ok, Amber.. I Love You.. nice enuff? hardly anyone in sch got my love u know..

Blogging in school.. Nic went to orchard to shop wif Dai jing.. Left only me n amber.. Amber din treat me nice in the morning.. she gif me tt kind of wan2 play dun wan2 play attitude.. ow can a maid behave in this way?? SHIT her.. Well, just taught her how to change blogskin.. -_-... Kinda cute of her saying tt it's so fun to change blogskin..

Anyway, tml will be celebrating my belated V-day wif Ah Benz.. Hope everything will turn out well.. Anyway, Benz.. i m someone who is not tt petty.. i tend to forget abt disagreement n argument! heex.. What a nice gf u haf!!!

Not to see dear for a long time..

2006-02-16T10:06:00.000+08:00

Argh.. i really dun like the idea of not meeting due to the preparation of celebration of our belated V-day..

Dear dear say i m not suppose to meet him for alot of days.. i cant tolerate tt.. shou bu liao!!! frankly speaking, i know he is trying to gif me a surprise.. but i m feeling very bad.. i know it's worth the waiting.. i know i will regret if i dun wait till saturday.. but.. the feeling is juz so uneasy..

Sigh.. i cant do anything to ease tt feeling awy.. guess i will juz keep myself busy and i wont have much free time to think of him.. i also dun wan2 make things difficult for him.. But, i'll juz hold down myself till Saturday ba..

Dear, if u haf read my blog, mayb u can contact me more to make up of the lost time of meeting ba.. i guess calling or msg frm u do help to heal tt kind of uneasy feeling abit..

As for wat kind of uneasy feeling? i oso dun know wat kind of feeling is it.. so no point asking me wat kind of feeling is it.. LOL.. Well, i m feeling better after blogging.. Ciao, back to my BIO.. ( Still waiting for Benji Desu Ka's msg..)