Friday, January 19, 2007 :]
Today is the 5th day of our break up.. Time flies.. Everyone around me keeps telling me to be strong, time will heal everything. Thanks to u all n especially my parents for being so supportive n caring for the past few days. I'm glad tt i've gt such encouraging parent wif hugs n console every now and then.
Ppl have been telling me that i dun look as if i have juz broken up wif someone who has always been wif me for 2 years. Well, i'm all well concealed! who would cry all day long wif their face shagged n eyes gogging out?? i wan2 maintain my beauty too! Becuz afterall i'm still in my 20 =)
I still do cry myself to sleep. Sleepless night thinking. But what else can i do? Memories everywhere i go. Songs that brings back those fond memories with him. Places that we have been together. Path that we once walk hand in hand. And even photos of us and our friends. It's all gone n turn into memories.
I'm getting use to this feeling. Trying to keep myself busy everyday. Enjoy the dinner alone and try to live myself to the best everyday. Becuz i know, he no longer is the one accompanying me down the future road.
Msg to Benz:
Benz, i agree with wat u say and wat u think. Although i'm agreeing but that doesn't mean i dun love u anymre. Afterall u are the 1st guy who i spend such long time together. Watching fireworks together, walking from jurong east all the way back to my house, changing me from someone introvert to someone who dares to speak up. makes me fall in love with dogs. went to StarCruise together. Receive my first bouqeut of white roses from you. Teach me how to play mahjong. The very first guy who cooks noodle for me. And lots lots mre. Benz, i wont forget you and our past. Becuz they are always so special to me for being the first love which is hard to forget =) Dun worry abt me, time will surely heal the wound. Do stay in contact because i believe although we cant be couple but we can still b gd frens^^
Msg to Roomates:
Ladies and gentleman. i know it's hard for u guys to accept the fact that our Lao Ben is no longer wif me, wif us. And @ the moment it will be a hard time for me and you guys. Bcuz u all are my second family. my second home. And we once spend so much time together as 4 couples. but now it's left wif 3 1/2 couple. it's no longer whole. And i guess going out with you guys will make me feel worst. I hope u all can understand and Shan.. i dun think i dare to go for ur chalet. i am afraid tt i might break down instead of wishing u happy birthday. This episode will forever leaves in my mind. First love gone in the age of 21.. Leo, bet u gonna cut awy the clip u made. sorry for wasting your time. Fan and Ying i really admire the 2 of u to spend 5years together. and i hope u all will go on strongly. Shan n Ernest, be strong together.. i would nv wan2 see anyone of u be seperated becuz the feeling is unbearable and i wont wan anyone of u to get hurt.
Well.. as for me... time will heal~ hahaha.. for the time being will juz let my wound left open n get use to the stinging wind out there till i get use to it.
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2:52 PM
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