Wednesday, July 26, 2006 :]
Argh.. y gt this kind of ppl? Just bcuz u are sad n u suddenly need someone to go all the way down to find u in the middle of the night then is consider a true fren?
Or is it that when u r bored n u nid someone to acc u out den is a gd fren?
Or is it tt u r able to share ur sorrow wif tt fren, solve problem together den u r consider gd fren?
Sometimes, some ppl just dun know how to think. Juz merely use tt pea size brain to think tt they r always right n true frens are those who is willing to follow their command everytime. Come on, Pls b more mature.. i will nv b ur gd fren bcuz i will nv do things tt is against my right or my conscience. i always feel tt i treat u as a 100% fren, but u always think tt i m someone who uses u to past times.. Pls think clearly, pls know wat u r thinking.. u r no longer young. people have their own life too, they have gt their own stuffs, own studies.. So wat if u r so damn fucking free every night? i dun think u have the right to ask me out whenever u wan n morever gif me tt fucking attitude when i m not free or have an early lesson the next day..
Wake up la.. I m sick n tired of this kind of friendship.. i wont even feel pity if we r not going to contact again.. Rather, i will feel relieve n glad tt someone who is so ignorant, so proud, so youreslf to b able to get out of my life. Go live in ur own world.. One day, u will realise tt u will have no friends left around u, bcuz u have chase them awy URSELF!
If u have read my blog n u think u r not at fault? Well, think twice.. Think thrice and think once again.. Think carefully, r u really the one who is right? Or u are gonna say "ya la, ya la.. My fault again, u r always right" This shows how naive n childish r u, n u stil have the cheeks to say u r mature enuff to handle stuffs.. For goddness sake, sit down, look @ the wall or even at my blog then think carefully wat u really wan n who to be.. dun waste your life awy just like tt. Bczu to me, they way u r now is totally hopeless!
I cant say i m a very gd fren to all the frens i know. Bcuz to some ppl out there, they dun like the way i do things, they dun like the way i handle my friendship. But wat can i do? I may not born to please them, not born to please everyone. I m not b someone good in some ppl's eyes, but i m sure tt i still have a bunch of true pals n belove who stay with me always.
Well, dun bother to tag or blog bcuz i wont really care.. I once do care but since this is the treatment i get then fine. Suits u.. May u lives happily, but pray hard u will..
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Monday, July 24, 2006 :]
Due to some technical problem, i am not able to put my pictures up. So sorry guys.. i'll upload them asap and by then, do enjoy browsing my blog once in awhile.. Dun forget, my words can still b publish!! Cheers~
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Friday, July 21, 2006 :]
Alot of people around me is talking abt breaking up or have even broke up. Ah ben's friends ended their relationship one after another and yesterday his another friend just ended a r/s too. People always say bad things comes in 3. Well, tt's His 2nd friend who has bad news so which mean a 3rd one is coming up? Oh my, i was scare. i told Ben tt we must not be the 3rd pair that broke up bcuz after all the hardship we have gone through, it's not time to end everything yet. Another thing i was scare of bcuz My side of fren also have case of breaking up and recently i have heard of 2 cases alr. Oh damn... Looks like there's a high possiblity of a 3rd one coming..Haha, anyway, Ben scolded me for being ignorant to believe in this kind of things. Well, i agree with him too in some ways but sometime things are just so unpredictable. Went to K Box yesterday, Sing till my throat hurts. 2 times in a week, tt's gonna hurt my melodious voice~Going for movie tonight. Hope it will make my day bcuz i am feeling tired right in the morning before i even step into the campus. Sigh... Well, i may not b a Christian but i do want to say this to everyone i know. God Bless Everyone, the one who is sad, the one who is having stress and the one who is experiencing a dark moment now and to the one who is reading my blog~ CIAO!
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Sunday, July 16, 2006 :]
Sigh.. such a long long week.. FinalLy it's sunday and i am able to come to Ah Ben hse n put in all my photos n blog!
Well, I shall not talk too much and let my pictures do the talking. Tt's where A Pictures Means A Thouand Words come from~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238421Nic's Birthday. Taken in the lift by Papa John
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238422Happy Family~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238423Eating Nic's cake~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238424Nic's present. including us.
Next will b taken on the day when we had our lab lesson teaching us how to mold on put on cast!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238425Ambers' and my cast
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238427This is Amber n Nic's one~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238428Our Cast.. Guess who's is who's!!!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238429Before the Casting Session~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238430Before the casting session 2~
And the day we went Eski Bar... It's BBBRRrrrrr coldddddd
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238431It's so cold.. There's even smoke when we talk!!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238432Lesbian Pic!!!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238433in the toilet of cuz
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238434The drinks we had. Strawberry Magarita and The Sleeping Polar Bear
Next is in a pub in Neils Rd We Gia Gia and Alan~ But too bad, Alan is not in the pic!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238435Gia and ME!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238436The Drinks we Had
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238437The Purple Lightning~
Next will be some random pick taken in schools
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238438I totally fall in love with this pic!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238439Nice one wth Qiu Ping
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238440Tt's Nic's Cap.. I juz Merely borrow it!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238441Taken in the tutorial room~
And Last but not least, Let me introduce the new member in my house! *applause* Let's all rise and welcome Kwok Xiao Bai!!!!!!
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238442a Dogs with a pair of eyes tt will make your heart melt.
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238443Muackz~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238444Up~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238445And Down~
http://www.badongo.com/pic/238446And the Famous Pencil Case! muahahah~
Ok, tt's all i haf took wif Ah ben hp~ So hold i can upload more again~ CYA!!!
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Sunday, July 09, 2006 :]
Firstly i m deeply sorry to Mr Benz. I m feeling guilty for not letting u to meet your fren but suffer in my fren hse slping @ the crough. I m really guilty n really sorry about it. I knew u wont enjoy. But i cant bear to let u go too. Sigh.. I really feel very remorseful right now. Pls.. forgive me -_-'' :( |
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Friday, July 07, 2006 :]
AAahhhhh.. Juz check my result for the Attachment on yr 2. Well, damn the Ward sister for giving us such low marks! We are slogging our guts out everyday during attachment just because tt god damn bloody ward gt not enough AN(Assistant Nurse). And we student has become free labour who we din really meant our learnign objective in the ward bcuz we are being treated as AN or worst PCA lower rank then AN. F*** them. Instead of thanking us for helping them on those damn hour para, input/output chart, she just merely give comment on us that we are not active enough! WHAT??? did i hear it right???Argh! Yesterday Sharlene pull me to Geylang to have a big feast on Durain. Wo de Tian ah, in the end i had a bad stomacj upset in the morning.. Pu and Pu and Pu! hehehe~ Well, was fun too and it was relaxing bcuz we bought the durain to ECP n sat there eating. Poor Alan, he was being scolded by Sharlene for not answering her question probably.. haha.. Well, Alan was our chaffeur yesterday, i m the follower and Sharlene was the Leader. She decides where to go and wat to do. Oh ya, recently Sharlene gt quite a few of tuition assignment for me. But it's either too far or it does not fit my time table. Tot i could earn a few bucks~Recently, alot of people was telling me tt i look very loving Wif Ah ben. Let me count how many ppl haven tell me that. hmm.. around, 5? ya, shld be around there. They even ask me how to keep a r/s in this kind of state. whereby u do quarrel but afterawhile gets back together n loving again. Frankly speaking, i dun know how to answer this kind of question. But i do have a few words on how i think n act in this relationship.During the past 1 yr plus, It's nv good life for the 2 of us. Dun talk abt the honey moon period. Honeymoon is only soemthing sweet whereby both parties will still b political to each other and no for garnted is being spotted. But as times n days past by which is approximately 3 months for wat i heard from normal couple. This is the beginging of the take each other for granted phrase. They will compare their partner wif other couple, they will compare their partner's attitude n the way they do things. Never will one self feel tt the love the other party gives is enough. They will always ask for more, more, and more. And tt may leads to numerous of quarrels, heart-breaking nights, Panda eyes n big soggy eyebag. I have been thru all this. whatever i mention above is what i haf been doing n is stressing them on my partner. He tolerate wif me @ first, but as times goes by, he starts to get tired of consoling, gets tired of the same episode happening again and again, gets tired of explaining, get's tired of assuring. @ this part of time, both parties will start to blame each other more major quarrels will follow up n tt will lead to break-up. My r/s had numerous of break-up, or shld i say nearly broke up. But we manage to savage it @ the end of the day. We still quarrel, we still fights, i still throw tantrums @ time but it's better now. I know my limit n he know his. And i have learn quite a few lesson. I learn not to probe on things tt may hurt him or hurt myself. I learn not to dig on things tt may reveal danger. I learn to let go n forget. U can oso say tt i pretended nothing happen. Ignorance.. I am currently happy wif this r/s n had no problem wif it. So, mayb if u really wan2 know why we look so loving? u can try the way i maintain this r/s??!! haha..
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Thursday, July 06, 2006 :]
Eh.. no one missing my post. no one tag in my tag box.. No one notice my extinct!!! What is this ma!!!Anyway, I'm back! Recently no post bcuz Comp spoil, no mood to blog, too tired after attachment to blog..So many things happen tt i din blog down. Firstly, know this guy frm the ward i m attach to. He is a 40 yr old plus man wif a family of 3. Anyway, it started like this. His wife was admitted for giving birth and so she is admitted to my ward. Coincidentally, the Wife husband is the ward sister's brother! Well, i dun attend to them bcuz i m not asign to tt cubicle. So on the last day b4 she is discharge, i walk past tt cubicle. I saw her husband and he smile at me. For being polite, n i m in my uniform, i had to smile back. And tt ended the whole episode in the ward. Next day, i saw him in the Kopitiam @ the hospital lobby. He stop me n talk to me. He ask for my number in the end. I was reluntant to give it to him. But his continuing of persuading, i gave up. I thought he was being friendly to get my number n to know me as friends? morever he is married n just had a newborn.Never do i know tt he is actually interested in me n had been volunteering to send me back from work, or send me to work. He always make plans like going for dinner in this posh resturant @ the seaside or have this relaxing breakfast in a cosy n comfortable environment. But i haven nv entertain him or go for his date. A few days ago, all of a sudden, he wants me to have his credit card. He wants me to spend his money. He wans me to use his money so tt he can buy me wat i wan! Oh my god. Wonder what will his wife thinks if she found out abt this. Anyway, i juz merely ignore him~And now, he is again pestering me to talk to him on fone bcuz he misses my voice n misses my smile.. Wo de Tian ah.. Save me someone!!!!Well, A start of a new semester. A few new faces but everything seems fine to me. Year 3 i m in now. Gt to know more friends then i was in year 1. But more projects coming up n more tense n stress moment i am going to go thru. Sigh.. Tired...I'll try to blog again asap.. So PLS MISS ME!! Especially Mr Ben~
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